I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate... I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.
-Romans 7
I've never liked this verse because it feels like a justification or a cop out, but whether I like it or not doesn't take away from it's truth.
If all I do is sin and Jesus tells me I am not my sin then what am I?
What's left?
I make choices I don't want to make everyday. The guilt sits heavy on my heart. With Christ there is not condemnation but that doesn't stop this feeling in my stomach. Who am I Abba? Who do You say that I am? Faith without deeds is dead. Do my actions define who I am? But my actions aren't good they are rotten.
I am selfish, I am broken. Will my past forever haunt me? Jesus You break these chains only for me to wake up the very next morning with them back on.
If I am not my sin and I am my actions then who does that make me? I am 24 years old battling a being who has been tempting, accusing, and hating humans for thousands of years. I can't win this fight I need You Jesus. But it's more than by faith I need deeds. My own conscience needs the deeds to go with this faith. My heart can't handle these constant failures.
Jesus I know I am washed clean by Your blood but it doesn't seem to make it any easier to look at myself in the mirror. I am a whore wife, I am a prodigal son, I am a sinner, I am a lost sheep, I am unworthy, I am Adam.
Please wash my past clean. Please break these chains each morning. I want to please You I want to offer this life as a pleasing sacrifice to You but each day I bring it to Your altar it is blemished and broken. I can do nothing good apart from You and Your glory.
Abba please forgive me for what I've done. Jesus please wash my feet and make me clean. Spirit please fill me and guide the steps of my life.
I am standing in the need, I am standing in the need
because I can't control this person behind my hands
-Romans 7
I've never liked this verse because it feels like a justification or a cop out, but whether I like it or not doesn't take away from it's truth.
If all I do is sin and Jesus tells me I am not my sin then what am I?
What's left?
I make choices I don't want to make everyday. The guilt sits heavy on my heart. With Christ there is not condemnation but that doesn't stop this feeling in my stomach. Who am I Abba? Who do You say that I am? Faith without deeds is dead. Do my actions define who I am? But my actions aren't good they are rotten.
I am selfish, I am broken. Will my past forever haunt me? Jesus You break these chains only for me to wake up the very next morning with them back on.
If I am not my sin and I am my actions then who does that make me? I am 24 years old battling a being who has been tempting, accusing, and hating humans for thousands of years. I can't win this fight I need You Jesus. But it's more than by faith I need deeds. My own conscience needs the deeds to go with this faith. My heart can't handle these constant failures.
Jesus I know I am washed clean by Your blood but it doesn't seem to make it any easier to look at myself in the mirror. I am a whore wife, I am a prodigal son, I am a sinner, I am a lost sheep, I am unworthy, I am Adam.
Please wash my past clean. Please break these chains each morning. I want to please You I want to offer this life as a pleasing sacrifice to You but each day I bring it to Your altar it is blemished and broken. I can do nothing good apart from You and Your glory.
Abba please forgive me for what I've done. Jesus please wash my feet and make me clean. Spirit please fill me and guide the steps of my life.
I am standing in the need, I am standing in the need
because I can't control this person behind my hands