231 days
October 8th to May 26th
231 days
Old pain started resurfacing today and I didn't understand it. As I was kicking the edge today I kept asking You why and seeking the source.
Is it because I want to marry her?
"No"
Is it because I don't want anyone to marry her?
"No"
Is it because she is happy and feels no remorse for what she has done?
"No"
Then You revealed it to me. In the stillness of the beautiful day outside. You said it softly to me:
"Adam, you miss your friend"
It's true isn't it Abba? I feel this pain because I miss my friend.
I miss listening to her thoughts, ideas, life, anything and everything,
I miss sharing anything and everything,
I miss the laughs, the tears, the fights, sharing our lives, and growing up together.
But what should I do about it? What can I do? My friend has become a completely different person. Even if I wanted to talk to her I wouldn't be talking to the same person.
As painful as the loss of my closest friend is to me, there isn't anything I can do.
What happened?
Nothing stays the same, everything changes
I can't control anything except myself
No one can ever truly know someone
These three statements remain true to this day for me.
Jesus I lost a valuable friend, but I learned even more valuable truths.
You are good
You are faithful
You are unfailing love
Things will never be as they were. Loss is a part of this world. Life is a raging river continually moving forward and always changing.
Yes I miss my friend, but You make all things new. You make me whole.
The Ballad of Jesus and Adam - The Avett Brothers
I forgive her.
October 8th to May 26th
231 days
Old pain started resurfacing today and I didn't understand it. As I was kicking the edge today I kept asking You why and seeking the source.
Is it because I want to marry her?
"No"
Is it because I don't want anyone to marry her?
"No"
Is it because she is happy and feels no remorse for what she has done?
"No"
Then You revealed it to me. In the stillness of the beautiful day outside. You said it softly to me:
"Adam, you miss your friend"
It's true isn't it Abba? I feel this pain because I miss my friend.
I miss listening to her thoughts, ideas, life, anything and everything,
I miss sharing anything and everything,
I miss the laughs, the tears, the fights, sharing our lives, and growing up together.
But what should I do about it? What can I do? My friend has become a completely different person. Even if I wanted to talk to her I wouldn't be talking to the same person.
As painful as the loss of my closest friend is to me, there isn't anything I can do.
What happened?
Nothing stays the same, everything changes
I can't control anything except myself
No one can ever truly know someone
These three statements remain true to this day for me.
Jesus I lost a valuable friend, but I learned even more valuable truths.
You are good
You are faithful
You are unfailing love
Things will never be as they were. Loss is a part of this world. Life is a raging river continually moving forward and always changing.
Yes I miss my friend, but You make all things new. You make me whole.
The Ballad of Jesus and Adam - The Avett Brothers
I forgive her.