01/31/09

Saturday January 31, 2009 - I am selfish

Today I woke up around 11:00 and Blake and I scrapped the ice off of his car and went to Kroger. I bought some mountain dew, pizza rolls, and lemon-aid mix. Also got a Kroger plus card. After that I made pan cakes for Dain, Blake and myself. Then I did dishes, cleaned the kitchen and watched some Sonny with Blake. After he went to study I played some halo with Travis. Then Travis went to visit Jimmy in Dayton. So I had no one home. Since Tim is home for the weekend. I did more of my geography project then surfed the web for a while. Blake asked if I wanted to watch a movie so we tried watching Best of the Best but the computer Net flicks didn't work. So I called Whitney and saw that Alex had called. She wanted to hang out tonight so I told Whitney and Whitney didn't like the idea of Sealscott talking to me. But I went ver there and took her back to watch Kindergarden Cop. Blake went to sleep, Travis got home then Dain came home he went down stairs near the end of the movie and Alex just cried in Dain's arms. I felt like a jerk that couldn't realize that something was wrong with Alex. I was too busy wanting to watch the movie I didn't notice. It's 1:08 now and I'm going to call Whitney and go to bed. I hate the person I am. I hate the flesh that holds me.

01/30/09

Friday January 30, 2009 - TGI Friday

Today I went to Spanish. Turned in my typed paper then did ok on my written thing. Then did bad on my oral quiz. After that class ran into Tyler. Asked him about group then got home showered shaved and washed my clothes. After that Dain, Tim, and I played Halo and I baked brownies for the house. Meanwhile Dain was getting scouted for a Halo 4 on 4 team like the real deal. So he played with them until he left for work. Then I did some Spanish homework and Travis got home. So we watched the dog whisperer for a bit. I put my clothes away and Whit called me. We talked a bit she was stressed about this task she has to do for this "Ugly hey" thing she got roped into. I tried to calm her down. Then Trav, Blake, and I watched man on a wire off Blake's netflicks computer d/l. After that David W. came over and the four of us headed to the RPAC to eat food. But I paid $2 didn't get what I expected ate some noodles and rice. Then we played some ping pong and Trav and Blake went tubbing. I walked home called Whitney. We talked for 1:30 about that hey ugly thing and Miss Ohio. Then halo. She had to make rounds for being an R.A. so it's 11:21 now and when the roomies get home we are going to enjoy the weekend night. Play some halo just relax. That's all.

01/29/09

Thursday January 29, 2009 - Have I ever been happy

Today I rolled out of bed around 8:30 like a usual Thursday for this quarter. Showered and headed to class. Got to my recitation and the TA just went over the midterm which I got a B on. Then I walked to spanish and she said the vocab quiz will be Monday. So again I crammed and worried for nothing. Then today we learned a lot because of the lost day. Then I walked back to the man cottage. Then ate with Alex at Buck Yuck. Then walked her to class and went to geography. Found out that for the next 2 Thursdays I won't have geophy which is awesome. Then I got home played Halo with Dain for a bit. After I rode a bus the wrong way for a while. Then walked from the RPAC back home. After Halo I wrote my Spanish composition correction from the exam. Dain went to work then Travis came in my room and told me that I'm never happy and I only think of the past and future because I was thinking what if I fail. It made me feel really depressed. Like where does Smith get off telling me my life's worth or comparing his likes to my life? Then I watched Slumdog Millionaire with Alex, Emily, and Gary. It was good. I got dropped off then I called Whitney on my walk back to my apartment. It was nice to talk. I love her and I do enjoy life right now. I am thankful for what I have.

01/28/09

Wednesday January 28, 2009 - Snow Day

So as I was about to hang up the phone with Whitney last night I heard my phone make the text message sound. So I end the call with Whit and check the message. It was from Sarah S. saying Ohio State will be closed 28th. So Travis and I had a boost of energy and at 12 we went to Sealscott's to eat cookies. Then I went to bed woke up at 11 and I made pancakes for the house. After that we had to watch the 3rd Mad Max Beyond Thunder Dome. After that Dain did not have to go to work because of the snow so we played Halo. Dain, Tim, Travis and I. Dain got a perfection on one game and an untouchable. Which means he never died and got over 25 straight kills. Then after Halo Tim went to the Ohio State Michigan basketball game. It was free to students because the snow. So while he was gone Trav, Dain and Blake went to Adriatico's. Then they got back home and Alex was with them so we watched some Sonny and Tim got back. We beat Michigan. Then I called Whitney around 9:30 and we talked until 11. She had homework and stuff to do. She forgot to do this thing for a lady so she was writing an e-mail to apologize for it. I helped her understand that she will understand and it's not a big deal. I love being there for Whitney like that. I am glad that I help her whenever I can.

01/27/09

Tuesday January 27, 2009 - Just walk away

This morning again I went to Spanish like always. Got out, walked back to the pad. Dain asked if I wanted to eat with Alex and of course I did want free food. Then we went to Kennedy's. When I should have ate fast and crammed more before my one o'clock geography midterm. But after lunch I walked over to the Arps building. Crammed a little of the Europe map. Then took the test. I don't think I failed it which is good news. I think then I walked to Barnes and Nobel and bought 300 note cards and used 40 of them. Folded in half to make 80 cards for my spanish vocab. Because of the quiz tomorrow. I studied on and off this entire night. Then Dain cooked spaghetti for the whole house because Tuesdays are movie night, apparently, so we tried to decide on what movie to watch and we settled on Road Warrior. Which is a great flick. Nice way to follow Mad Max. So now it's 10:05 and I'm about to call Whitney. I also called the Quality Inn in South Bend and made reservations for the night of Feb 13th. Friday the 13th. Now that I think about it kinda creepy. I felt weird getting one bed for Whitney and I. I know we won't do anything it just felt dirty even just making the reservation. Now Whit call.

01/26/09

Monday January 26, 2009 - School's out forever

Today I went to Spanish like normal. Found out that my poem that my group made won. Which means that I will get a 100% on my homework check this week. Which I really need. Then I got home called Alex for lunch we ate. Then I went to her class with her tried to study a bit for my Econ midterm. Then when I got to Independence Hall I saw that kid that's in my recitation, sat next to him. I feel like I just bombed the thing. Just did awful. After that I got home. Travis and Giselle took me to the landlord and we renewed our lease for the man cottage for another year. Then went to Joy's. After that I studied a bit for my geography midterm. I have no idea how that will go. After that I surfed the net then at 10:00 I was suppose to lift with Dain so I ate some eggs and Travis and I looked at Oscar nominations. It got to 10:45 and Dain wasn't home so I checked my facebook and now it's 11:19. I'm about to call that wonderful woman Whitney. Hopefully I'll get to see her and spend the night with her the 13th and 14th of February. But that's still a few weeks away. Right now I'm worried about geography and spanish. I have a vocab quiz Wednesday. Now I'm calling Whit.

01/25/09

Sunday January 25, 2009 - OSU vs MSU

Tim woke me up around 8:30 to go to church. So I jumped in the shower and he and I listened to Rich Nathan's sermon on homosexuality. I thought he represented the Christian view point very well. After that on our way home Tim and I ate at Cane's. Then when we got home I went down stairs, called Whitney no answer, popped in Kingdom of Heaven and she called me back. We talked about the Oscar's until her phone died. Then I fell asleep during the movie. Caught the end and it was about 2 at this time. So Tim and I got ready to go to my first college basketball game Ohio State versus Michigan State. We lost 78-67 it was a good game. I thought we were going to get smoked so I got back home around 6:15 and did some spanish, learning the names of food now. Then I should have studied for econ midterm tomorrow. But for some reason I couldn't so I watched two episodes of sunny with Blake while I ate dinner. It is now 8:44 and I need to read Hebrews chapter 2 so Whitney and I can talk about it. I miss that girl a lot. Hopefully I'll get to see her in 20 days. But until then I'll just have to settle for phone even though I'm not that great on the phone anymore. For some reason, it bothers me too.

01/24/09

Saturday January 24, 2009 - Citizen Kane

Today I woke up around 11:00 and I called Whitney. We had a nice talk. Then as Dain and Tim were lifting I walked to seven eleven and bought some eggs and milk to make pancakes. When I got home I found Dain waiting by the door because he didn't take his key and they didn't know I was leaving. So I made some cakes. Which I found out needed no milk or butter or eggs, just water. Then Tim and I took our plates of pancakes down stairs and watched Citizen Kane. The "best movie ever" it was ok, not great. Then after I found out rosebud was a sled I played some halo with Travis. And then called Whitney. She thought I care more about Halo than her. That is ridiculous. So I had to let her know I do love her more than any other human on earth. Except myself at times which I hate. Then Travis Tim and I went to block buster and rented Mad Max. But before that I worked on my geography project a bit. About an area of franklin county. Then I ate my left over Olive Garden. Watched Mad Max while Trav and Tim had ice cream. It's nights and days like today that I am really thankful for the time I am in. No work or school and young, only 21 years old. After the movie I surfed the web now Whitney is off work it's 12:52 and I'm about to call her.

01/23/09

Friday January 23, 2009 - Alex's Dinner

Today I woke up went to spanish found out that I got a 67% on my first spanish exam which is amazing. I might be able to pull this class off thanks to God giving me the knowledge. After that on my way back to the cottage I ran into my brother. Then ate lunch with Alex at Buck Yuck. Then pwned some noobs with Dain, Brian and others. Dain went to work. I surfed the web, did some laundry. Then Travis got home from work and we watched a bit of south park. Then it was about 6 so I went to the South Jesse Owns and did my half our of power, bench, curl, abs, then trimmed the beard and showered for Alex's big 19th birthday party diner. We went to a Japanese steak house. Watched them cook it right in front of us. It was good and filling. After that went to Target bought a bigger DVD rack for my Brad Pitt collection and some fabric spray stuff. And now it's 10:34 and I haven't called Whitney at all. I am missing her bad. I love that woman. I'm all dressed up from the dinner and Dain and Travis are going to Gary's house for Alex's birthday party. But I'm going to stay home for Whitney time. I'm about to call her as soon as I finish this page. But praise God that I might pass Spanish 103.1

01/22/09

Thursday January 22, 2009 - Olive Garden Dinner

Today I woke up at 8:30 got ready for my econ recitation. Walked over there and I felt pretty good taking the quiz. After that at 10:30 I went straight to my spanish class. I got back a homework that I got a 37% on, which scared me. So every Wednesday and Friday I am going to go to the study sessions to get tutored. After that I dropped off my stuff at the apartment. Then Dain and I got lunch with Alex. Then Alex and I walked to our next classes at 12:30. Then I got out of Geography went to the bank cashed Dain's gas check for $27. Got home went over some of my spanish vocab and homework for tomorrow. We played a little halo. Then we went to Olive Garden. Dain, Travis, and I for the 25% discount. And before that Dain and I walked down High Street to find his book at a book store but they were all sold out. We got home played halo online with Brian Carr his roommate, and Rusty. It was fun I got 27 wheelmen in one game. But not as good as my 31 record. Then around 9:20 I called Whitney. We talked for a bit. I just want to be with her and I miss her. It's 11:54 right now and I'm about to get in my bed because I am cold and I hate the winter. I can't wait for spring to get here. I just want to pray that God's will be done in my life and let spanish go as He wants it to go.

01/21/09

Wednesday January 21, 2009 - Spanish Exam

Today I took my spanish exam and I feel like I did awful. Then I went back to the man cottage watched some season 9 of south park then went to econ 200. Learned more supply and demand concepts. Then I walked back home dropped off my stuff went to CVS bought some chips ahoy for group snacks. Then studied spanish for a while till 6:30. Went to lift did 10 reps of 135 then 9 then 5. It was a long Christmas break and it's cold outside. Then did some curls. Got home around 7:05 went to group met Hope new girl to Lost & Found. We went over 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12. It was a good lesson after that broke into groups and I asked for prayer about this quarter again. Because I'm flipping out. Then called my mom. She told me my phone bill came and I told her this quarter is hard. Then I studied Econ didn't feel like I was understanding it. It was around 10:30 so I called Whitney and we talked a lot abut our future. It got me kinda nervous and a lot of the times Whitney makes me feel dumb. Not on purpose but it's just me mentally. She is a 4.0 student, double major and minor, with RA, work, cheerleading, dance, acting, and miss Ohio. I'm just majoring in communication and I'm not even sure it I'll pass this quarter. But I'm glad she loves me and I wish I didn't feel this way. I love her.

01/20/09

Tuesday January 20, 2009 - Inauguration of Obama

Last night Tim made a website at www.tmetti.com. Whitney felt like I'm a closer friend with Alex which is stupid but there is a lack of trust still. Today I woke up and went to Spanish for the review which got me pretty nervous. Then I got lunch with Alex and Emily and on our way back to their dorm as the inauguration was starting I realized how important Obama being president is to the black community. All the workers and students that were black were glued to the TV and even though I don't like him and I hate what a pop culture idol he is. I realized that to the black community this is a step that I'll never understand how important it is to them. After that I went to geography class did ok on my east Europe quiz. Then cashed a check and bought Alex a birthday present. Got home and Brian had a halo account in Hiram so Travis, Dain, and I played with them for a bit. Then I studied spanish for a bit. Couldn't take it so I took a break and Danced with Alex did some tango and samba. Then she opened her gift. It was some gloves because she always complains about her cold hands. Then I went home studied a bit more and now Whitney is at a rehearsal until 10:30. Which gives me an hour to study but more likely play halo with Travis. I hope tonight's conversation with Whitney goes well. I love it when it goes well.

01/19/09

Monday January 19, 2009 - MLK Day Risk

Last night Whitney and I had an amazing night everything went perfect. Thank you God we read Hebrews Ch1 she finished things with Jimmy and the Steelers are going to the super bowl. But today I woke up at 8:30 woke everyone up. Blake couldn't play he had dentist work. But we began our Risk game and seven hours later Travis won. I came in second. I gave him the win because he let me live earlier in the game. Then once the game was over I watched some season 9 south park and called Whitney just to say hello. Then Travis, Dain, and I went to Alex's dorm got some cold stone and then Dain and Travis left because Trav went rock climbing and Dain played halo. Then I walked Alex to the RPAC for her dance club and I got home facebooked. Then studied the east europe countries because of my quiz tomorrow. Then I grabbed the risk table brought it up stairs put my stuff on it. This makes my desk area a lot better. I'm glad I did it so now I'm about to call Whitney. It's 9:44 now so I'm a little late. Hope she won't mind and I pray that things go well tonight and thank you for last nights conversation. I am very grateful that you put Whitney back into my life. That is all I have to write.

01/18/09

Sunday January 18, 2009 - Silent Day

Last night Whitney and I fought again then this morning I woke up at 10:50. Went to Central Vineyard with Blake and Travis then we shopped at Kroger for food. Got home and ate lunch watched an episode of Sunny. Night man cometh. Then I went up stairs and tried to study for my geography quiz Tuesday and Spanish exam Wednesday. But I got overwhelmed so after that I played Halo by myself. Lost a few matches and by this time Travis asked if I was going to Joshua House so I finished the game and went with him. Gicell (or however you spell it) and Gaaron (or however you spell it) I saw Matt S. there he's going in the marines June 13th. Then I saw Mackenzie F. too and we left right about. But got home set up risk for tomorrow. Played halo with Dain then checked facebook and I am now watching the Steelers possibly make it to the super bowl but the thing that makes today different is that I haven't called Whitney at all. I don't know why but I'm tired of fighting and I'm scared of her reaction when I call her tonight. She is suppose to talk to Jimmy to make sure they are just friends and not hate each other. Whitney and I are going to study Hebrews chapter 1 right after I'm done with this page. The house is all watching my bloody valentine in 3D. I pray that God's will be done with Whit and school.

01/17/09

Saturday January 17, 2009 - One flew over

Today I woke up at 11 and laid in bed for a while. Whitney and I had yet another dispute until around 4. Then Dain woke up so he and I played halo for a while then around 3 Dain had to go to work. So I called Whitney to see how she was doing and how her day was. I think my phone call woke her up because she went to bed around 8am. She was very upset last night and I'm not going to let that happen again. I hate it when she gets upset about us because I don't want to be a problem. I want to be a support for her to come to. So we talked for a bit then I played a little more halo. After that it was about 5:30 talked to Whitney until 6:30 then showered and Travis, Blake and I went to eat at a Mexican place, then Kroger for shopping and after that I talked to Whitney when I got home for 30 minutes. Then because we went to block buster we rented one flew over the coco's nest. It was good. Now I'm about to call Whitney again it's 12:55 right now. Her and I have been doing awesome tonight and I hope I don't mess this up for us. I just want her happy and to be able to put her trust in to my again. Like when we were teenagers. So that is all I have to write today.

01/16/09

Friday January 16, 2009

Today I woke up read utmost like usual went to my one class came home. Played Halo with Dain then he went to class. He got back we played more halo and that's when he and I got 31 wheelmen and 1 splatter. It was pretty awesome. Then he went to work and Alex called to eat lunch around 2:15. So I did that then got back because Whitney called me when I was there. Every time Whitney calls me and I am in a public place I can never hear her and she gets upset so I tried my best to let her know that I was glad she called. Then I got home called her left a voice mail. I think she went running and I think she thought I was suppose to call her at 11:20 but either I forgot or I didn't know. So then I went through my clothes and picked what I wanted and what I did not want. Then I did laundry. Travis and I played some more halo and I left Whitney a voice mail at 3,5,8,9. It's now 10:30 and still no Whitney. I am kind of nervous. I hope she's okay. I watched some south park too and now I'm about to try and call her again. I love her and I wish she knew that. I hate making her mad or letting her down. I am sure we can work through this. We always do because we care about this so much.

01/15/09

Thursday January 15, 2009 - 3-a-day

Today was tough waking up. Tim came in my room yelled at me to turn off my alarm. Then the trash dude was outside. So I went to my econ recitation I don't think I did well on the quiz but that's ok it happens. Then I went to spanish I feel a little less stressed about this class and then I came home. Ate lunch played some halo called Whitney, left a voice mail. She called me back we talked until her class at 12:30. Then I went to my 3rd class at 1:00 and I did fairly well on the western Europe map. After that class I played halo with Dain. Then he went to work and I called Alex she said we would dance at 5:50. I watched some south park then she called me. We walked in the freezing cold to the RPAC and all the rooms were busy so we just went back to her dorm. Ordered wings ate and hung out. I ran into that Whitney girl and Alex knew who she was, how embarrassing. But then I got back to the man cottage at 9:00 and it's 9:13 now I'm going to look over some spanish and then call Whitney. I pray that I don't say something wrong and that I don't get upset over something stupid. Whitney is an amazing gift and blessing from you Lord and I love her. Please don't even give me or Satan a chance to mess this up.

01/14/09

Wednesday January 14, 2009 - Halo Pwnin

Today I woke up and walked to spanish without calling Whitney. Then when I got out I left her a voice mail. Last night we had an awesome talk on the web cam and we didn't fight. Took pictures of me doing goofy stuff on my cam. Then I walked from spanish to the man cottage. Ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich while watching Sunny with Travis ten we played some halo. I called Alex went to her dorm for a bit then walked to Econ. After that class I feel like I understand supply and demand a little better. Then I went home again and watched some south park. Called and talked to Whitney for a bit then at 5 Alex, Travis, and I ate dinner at Kennedy's. Then I went home to study at 7 I looked over the map of Europe for a while waiting for Whitney to call. But she was talking with Nori so I watched more south park. Played a lot of Halo with Dain when he got off work. Finally Alexis called him around 10:30 or so, So I went in my room and called Whitney. She finally answered and we talked until 12 or maybe 1 but I made her mad because I said all old movies suck. Even though I haven't seen a lot of them. Then I said she didn't know urine town and it made her mad but she told me it bothered hr and we talked a bit more and she forgave me. Everything is fine.

01/13/09

Tuesday January 13, 2009 - Tuesday's Gone (w/ the wind)

Last night Whitney and I talked until 3 this time she wanted me to talk about Kayla and Kate both which I hate thinking about. So I wouldn't and we both got upset. But I woke up this morning and called Whitney to wake her up. We talked for a bit then I showered and got ready for spanish. She called me as I was about out the door and she talked to me the whole way to Spanish. I took my vocab test felt good about it then went to Alex & Emily's place. We ate at Buckeye Express (Buck Yuck) then I walked Alex to class. Then got home should have studied but Dain and I played Halo 3 for 2 hours then it was 6:00 and Blake helped me with my spanish homework and let me borrow his verb book. After that Dain, Travis, and I got pizza brought it back and we watched Life Aquatic. It was good, after that we took a lot of pictures and I called Whitney for a bit. I'm suppose to call her at 11:50 it's 11:27 now. For the moment I feel relaxed this quarter is pretty stressful but for the time I feel good. I'll do my best to study this quarter but in the end it is God's will that will shine through. How humble would I be if I flunked out of OSU but then I would get to work construction back home. Guess I'll just see where God puts me either way, his will.

01/12/09

Monday January 12, 2009 - School Work Day

Last night Whitney and I had one of our famous fights that we have on occasion where both of us make each other cry. It started of course because I wanted sleep and wasn't being a very good boyfriend on the phone. But at 3 in the morning we figured it out. This morning I woke up at 8:30 called Whitney to tell her I love her. Then I showered went to class on the walk I called her again and then outside of spanish class I talked to Kaci G. for a bit. Then I met my real spanish prof. She is pretty nice. After that I left a voice mail to Whitney and studied spanish with Emily and Alex. Then Alex and I went to Kennedy's ate. Then I had some free time so I went to her history class with her and in return after that she went to my Econ class. After that we went to Stradley again and I worked on Econ, realized I suck at it and then went home. Studied spanish vocab for my quiz tomorrow body parts. Then I ate dinner went lifting got back studied a bit more watched Tim and Travis play Halo then I read a chapter of Humility true greatness. Now it's only 9:53 and I'm waiting for the love of my life Whitney to call me back since I've called her probably 20 times today. I for some reason am really worried about this quarter. The classes seem hard and a lot of tests but I'm sure that God will keep me disciplined if it's his will and I also pray that I stop being so selfish with Whitney. I want her happy.

01/11/09

Sunday January 11, 2009 - Sack Lunch

I woke up at 8:50 today got dressed and Blake and I went to church, Central Vineyard. After that he wanted Chinese so we went to Barnes and Nobel while we waited for noon so the food place would open. After we ate lunch we got home and I talked to Tim about doing the lunch thing for the homeless. So I showered and so did Tim. We went to Kroger's bought the food and after that we made the sandwiches and started walking. We walked up High St. for a while didn't see anyone. Headed south near Short North ended up giving away four out of our 10 lunches and headed home. Once we were home I crashed on my bed woke up around 5:30. Travis and I went to Joshua House. Chris M. did the teaching. After that we grabbed some ice cream from the ice cream social then headed for Fazolies. I just ate free bread sticked talked with people. Afterwards Travis and I talked a bit about the group Lost & Found and a little of the politics. I think it was good for Travis. I'm glad I could help and hopefully I did help. Then I got home called Alex for lunch tomorrow and Travis and I played a game of Halo. Now I am writing this about to check facebook and call the beautiful Whitney Sue F. I again pray that God dwells within me.

01/10/09

Saturday January 10, 2009 - Camp Application

Today I woke up at 12:00 and right away Whitney called me it was kinda weird. She said she was sorry for last night and she doesn't like that we fight. That is something we will work on. After I showered, ate lunch then I headed out to study Geography. After that Blake called me asked if I wanted to catch a Documentary at the dollar theatre. All of this happened after I filled out my application for camp staff this summer. The movie was called Religulous and after around an hour of it Blake and I walked out of it. It was very bad. Then we drove to Block Buster. Mitch called me about the letter of recommendation for me and Blake rented The Lost Boys a sweet 80's movie with the Corey's in it. After that I went up stairs called Whitney we talked on the web cam for a while then I went to bed. I am feeling very kinda distant from God I'm not sure what it is or why or how to describe it but I feel lazy and only concerned with my school and own life. I pray that God dwells in me more and helps me become more selfless and less selfish. I don't have much anything else to say.

01/09/09

Friday January 9, 2009 - End of first week of winter quarter

Today I woke up to go to my first Friday class since high school. I showered and Brian was up he was leaving for Pence's place at 10:30. So I said my good bye to him then walked to Hagarty Hall sat through the spanish class then walked back to the man cottage. Blake, Tim, and other Tim were going to Zopa down town so I went with. It was good after that I walked to Barnes and Nobel for my Econ study guide. They didn't have it so I walked further north on High until I got to a different store. They had it I walked back in the snow and played Halo with Dain when I got back. Then Whitney called me around 3:45 she was driving back to St. Mary's. Then Dain went to work so I went to the Business library studied until 6 then went to the SEL until 7 got back home and Travis was playing guitar so I asked him if he wanted to go to Barnes & Nobel so I could return a book that I saw the SEL had. So I ate the other half of my Zopa then we went and when we got back Tim was at the basketball game. So Blake, Travis, and I saw Grand Torino. It was not good I thought. After we got home I called Whitney right away and we talked for a while even got on the web cams. She is just not very trusting of me and feels like I am going to slowly stop loving her and leave her like I did before. But not this time. I love her and won't ever leave.

01/08/09

Thursday January 8, 2009 - National Championship

Today I woke up and made it to my recitation for Econ fine. Then went to the SEL because I had a half hour before spanish. After that I went to spanish. Keith helped me get through again. Then after that I called Emily and Alex and we ate lunch at Kennedy's. Then I had no time to study with Emily so Alex and I walked to class. The Geography class is hot and long but I made it. Got home watched Donnie Darko with Brian napped a bit then started watching the Florida Oklahoma game. During half time I talked to Whitney a bit because she called me and missed me. Then I went to Emily's and just copied the spanish homework. Finished watching Florida win then Blake and Brian helped me do more spanish. After that I went to my room talked to Whitney on the phone and it's now 1:58am and I have spanish at 10:30. I got my web cam all set up because after class Brian and I went to Target and bought the man cottage photos and frames. That was pretty much my day. I hope God gets me through this quarter ok and that I don't stress out. I also hope that Whitney and I stop getting annoyed over little stuff that doesn't matter. I love her and I know that little stuff doesn't matter as these days go on I'm sure we will grow more and more closer and more trusting. We just have to wait for that time.

01/07/09

Wednesday January 7, 2009 - I love Whitney

Last night Whitney and I talked till 12:00 then I got up went to spanish. I think the class is getting less nerve wracking then I called Emily but she had a lunch so we couldn't study. Then I got home watched some price is right then Brian, Travis, Blake and I ate adriatico's for lunch. Then I went to Econ got home watched the other part of Pineapple Express. Then the Davidson vs 2Duke game started but Lost and Found started up. Travis did a lesson on giving ourselves alone time to be with God. Because he is in the quiet gusts to Elijah. Then Brian and I fast forwarded the Davidson Duke game. Duke won then the group played rock band and Whitney called me at 10:00. We read through the bible for a while then she had to bring up Kayla for some reason. She said it really bugs her and I told her for over 2 hours that Kayla is nothing and I love Whitney more than anything. There isn't even a competition and it's not even fair to compare Whitney to Kayla. But she kept bringing it up to the point where I got very upset and Whit hung up on me. So I had to call her back and cry on the phone for a half an hour because I hate who I was with Kayla and I hate the year 2008. Then Whitney said she was sorry and she loves me but I'm still really upset and I have to look over spanish stuff and get up at 8:30 tomorrow.

01/06/09

Tuesday January 6, 2009 - Back into the groove

Last night Whitney and I talked until 3:30 but I was not nice. It was old selfish prideful Adam. Eventually thanks to Whitney I woke up and fixed things. It was tough getting up this morning. I'm going to try to go to sleep earlier tonight. But today spanish was just as nerve wrecking as usual. But I'm sure I'll pass it. Just might be embarrassing. Then I came home hung out with Brian and ate lunch then went to Arps hall. It was an old and hot building for geography. I kept falling in and out of sleep. I felt bad then after class Alex called me we walked in the rain to Barnes & Nobel for more school books. Then ate at mirror lake cafe. After that I talked to Emily her roommate about help in spanish. Then practiced dance with Alex. I had been hipping in cha cha when I shouldn't after that I went back to the man cottage. Watched the end of Fargo and a few episodes of scrubs. The beginning of pineapple express. I went upstairs said good night to Dain and now it's 11:00. After I checked my facebook I'm about to call Whitney. I'm not reading and my days seem busy. I hope God can allow more time for him in my day. I will work for that more. It's def my fault not God's. I just need a reminder during the day or in my down time that I could be reading and praising God now instead of whatever I am doing. I still need to talk to Tim about making lunches for homeless.

01/05/09

Monday January 5, 2009 - Fiesta Bowl

Whitney and I did not talk very long. She was pretty out of it. So I woke up today and walked to my spanish class found the building ok and as soon as I get in the professor starts talking completely in spanish and I flip out. After class I called Whitney on the walk back to the man cottage. Then Travis Brian and I went to Taco Bell for lunch and Barnes and Nobel to buy my spanish book because I'm going to need help. Then at 2 I left for my Econ class which has over 500 people in it and the professor is middle eastern. She doesn't speak english well. So I get out of that class and Brian, Travis, and I go to Alex's place. I walked her to class. She gave us cookies then we watched Cool World in the basement. Then the bowl game where we had another disappointing loss but atleast it wasn't a blow out. Now it's 12:22 and I'm about to call Whitney. I have spanish again tomorrow. I hope that I don't loose sight of Jesus oh and I found out that I failed my stupid survey class so I have to retake that again. But also trimmed my goatee, as I was saying, I pray that I stay focused on God and that Whitney and I can handel this distance. She is still at home for this week. I think this will be a decent quarter and I hope I stay focused. I just want to be done with school.

01/04/09

Sunday January 4, 2009 - Back to school

Today I woke up tired because I stayed up so late. So I headed to Sunday school at 10:15 and stayed for church. During Sunday school Whitney called me but I couldn't answer. I called her back in between Sunday school and church but no answer. So I got out and called Brian he was at Wal-mart then going to pack. So I went to Micky D's got some lunch and started packing too. Then Brian came over and we set up my Dad's big remote. Then it was about 4 so we went to Taylor M. house to pick up Jake because he just got home from the IHOP thing. He felt like crap so we went to his house talked with his parents a bit then left for Real at 7. Jake had his head in the toilet as Brian and I left and we got to Smith's. I called Whitney no answer again. I really wanted to go see her one more time. Then she called me back said she was on her way. We went over 1 John chapter 4 in Real then everyone was leaving Smith's house. I walked over to Whitney's car to tell her good bye and good night. She wouldn't let me kiss or even hug her good bye. I told her I'd call her when I got to Columbus. So Brian and I headed out got back to C-bus around 1:30. Brian got a $120 ticket for turning left on to 11th ave from the south. It was bull crap. So I'm going to pay it because it was my fault. Well I have to call Whitney now because I love that woman.

01/03/09

Saturday January 3, 2009 - Last day of work

Today I woke up at 7:05 to 4 of Whitney's missed wake up calls. So I called her back to let her know that I got up and to thank her I got to work and Dustin and Matt and I all did year end stuff like totals for each supplier. Then for lunch we went to the Grasshopper. After work Kelsey G. called me so we ate at Stella Blue from 6-9. I saw Taylor G. there and a few other WHS class of 04 girls. Then I called Brian and he Pence and I went to wal-mart to look for a DVD rack for my Brad Pitt collection. But I couldn't find the kind I wanted there. We saw Scott B. Derek S. and Aspen C. Then I dropped them off at Carr's house. Got home and read a bit of Humility. Whitney called me because she had some free time at her Fricke christmas. we started talking about Miss Ohio stuff and she is on the missohio.org website. It's pretty crazy to see her on there like this is the real deal. But then she had to go so I told her I would call and leave a voice mail before I went to bed. I called her at 3 because I fell asleep and napped.

01/02/09

Friday January 2, 2009 - Day off

Today I woke up ate some eggs and toast with the family, read some of Jesus did it anyway. Then went up stairs napped woke up finished the book. Then Tyler and Brittany went back to OSU. Me my mother and Aunt ate soup together. Whitney called me on her way to dance. I sat around, Brian called me bored around 5. So he and Pence came over and they were hungry. We drove to Archbold first went in Stella Blue talked to Kelsey then left and ate at Mom's Diner. Where I saw Jillian K and Katie M. Then we went home. Whitney was at a Christmas party so while I waited for her I read some Humility True Greatness. Which is my 3rd Jake book. Whitney got to my house around 11:00 we started watching Cool World on my laptop because it's from Australia. It was very raunchy so I had to turn it off and put in Wall-E for Whitney. We kissed through half of the movie but I couldn't help it. Then we sat together a bit. I had work in the morning so she had to leave but it wasn't until about 2:15 when she did. She called me when she got home to let me know she was safe. I prayed and thanked God for Whitney and I am still very blessed. I pray that God keeps all doubt out of my mind and helps me love her even more.

01/01/09

Thursday January 1, 2009 - Soup Day

Last night Whitney was very upset when I was at Trav's. She called me and the call dropped because I have no service and she claimed that 2 weeks ago I would have called her back and now I didn't. She thought I am already falling back into old habits. So we talked until 4:30. I still love her and I don't know why I didn't call her back. But I now know how much it means to her so I will from now on. I woke up at noon showered and headed to Grandma and Grandpa Schuch's for soup day. We watched Michigan State lose to Georgia. Ate soup and left, watching Tyler and Brittany makes me miss Whitney even more than ever she even called me during soup day and I said sorry for being mean on the phone last night. I know with God we can make it this time. I love her. I got home around 5 called her again then the family watched Wall-E and watched Penn State get killed by USC. Then I surfed the net and read more Jesus did it anyway. I called Whitney at 11:30. She is sleeping over at Kelsey L.'s tonight. Hopefully I will get to see her tomorrow. God please help me and give me strength to over come my struggles. Keep my mind busy with your will and your word. Don't let this control me and have power. I only want you at the center of my life.