Saturday February 21, 2009 - Filming Day
Today I woke up around 1:00 because I was very mean to Whitney last night for no reason and because I act mean to her for no reason I feel like I'm losing her and for that I hate myself. I don't understand what's wrong with me. I love Whitney I want her happy. She makes me happy and then I am mean to her. So I did nothing at all this day then around 8 or so Travis and Dain wanted to make a youtube video so we started talking about ideas. We started filming a montage video then Rachel and Emily from group came over and we watched the movie "Life is a house" it was good. Once the movie was over with Thomas Trudel there we finished making the movie. So while Travis started editing the video I called Whitney and told her I was sorry for the past two days. She told me that she's starting to become cold agian to me and I feel like I'm going to lose her before it even begins again. What the fuck is wrong with me. So I stayed up with Travis editing until 6:30 in the morning. Posted it on youtube and went to sleep. I hate myself and I pray that God ends my life.
Today I woke up around 1:00 because I was very mean to Whitney last night for no reason and because I act mean to her for no reason I feel like I'm losing her and for that I hate myself. I don't understand what's wrong with me. I love Whitney I want her happy. She makes me happy and then I am mean to her. So I did nothing at all this day then around 8 or so Travis and Dain wanted to make a youtube video so we started talking about ideas. We started filming a montage video then Rachel and Emily from group came over and we watched the movie "Life is a house" it was good. Once the movie was over with Thomas Trudel there we finished making the movie. So while Travis started editing the video I called Whitney and told her I was sorry for the past two days. She told me that she's starting to become cold agian to me and I feel like I'm going to lose her before it even begins again. What the fuck is wrong with me. So I stayed up with Travis editing until 6:30 in the morning. Posted it on youtube and went to sleep. I hate myself and I pray that God ends my life.