I just want to be liked.
where does my witness come from?
Do I listen to the voice of lies?
Do I pursue the affirmation of people?
Do I seek worldly accolades?
Do I trust Your word?
The fact of the matter is I struggle with self hate. I don't like myself.
When someone who needs to be liked doesn't like who they are they begin to seek affirmation from places. This leads to addiction.
The writer of Ecclesiastes sought this affirmation through
wealth
women
food
the writer couldn't seem to find contentment or peace in those things.
There isn't anything wrong with wealth, women or food. They are good gifts from God. The problem is the appetite.
We are built to ask the question am I loved? Am I good enough? Do I have what it takes?
The question isn't the problem. The answer is the problem.
You are if...
There are no ifs, no strings, no conditions, no barriers to God's love.
How do I trust that? How do I believe that I am enough and loved by the Creator of all?
When I doubt that truth, when I buy that lie, the addiction comes back and I run to places asking the question do you like me?
Then I find myself disgusted at myself for the fact that I had to get my worth from that place and I find myself worse off than I started.
The cycle doesn't seem breakable.
What is grace?
What is grace in it's fullest purest form? What does it truly feel like?
I have a problem flirting with women.
I have a need to be liked.
I have a God who likes me deeply.
Why do I need the words of humans to find my worth?
Why do I need the money of this world to find my worth?
Why do I need the awards and achievements of this world to find my worth?
I don't.
So I decided there is nothing better than to enjoy food and drink and to find satisfaction in work. Then I realized that these pleasures are from the hand of God. For who can eat or enjoy anything apart from him?
-Ecclesiastes 2
Apart from God nothing can satisfy,
With God anything can satisfy.
I am a sinner but so is everyone else.
We all need grace we've never given.
We all need to be washed in the blood.
But even after that we need our feet washed daily and Jesus is more than willing to change our diapers.
As soon as we soil our diaper we have the choice to run to Abba and get it changed or we can sit in it and develop a collection and a very painful crippling rash. If we deny or avoid our sin it only compounds and further imprisons us. If we try to save ourselves, if we try to act like we are perfect, we will lose ourselves. If we try to lose ourselves, if we admit we are sinners, babies with filthy diapers, then we will be saved.
I am a man and I need to feel liked.
And that's ok.
God I pray that You would show me that You like me. Help me feel.
You are mine - Enter the Worship Circle
where does my witness come from?
Do I listen to the voice of lies?
Do I pursue the affirmation of people?
Do I seek worldly accolades?
Do I trust Your word?
The fact of the matter is I struggle with self hate. I don't like myself.
When someone who needs to be liked doesn't like who they are they begin to seek affirmation from places. This leads to addiction.
The writer of Ecclesiastes sought this affirmation through
wealth
women
food
the writer couldn't seem to find contentment or peace in those things.
There isn't anything wrong with wealth, women or food. They are good gifts from God. The problem is the appetite.
We are built to ask the question am I loved? Am I good enough? Do I have what it takes?
The question isn't the problem. The answer is the problem.
You are if...
There are no ifs, no strings, no conditions, no barriers to God's love.
How do I trust that? How do I believe that I am enough and loved by the Creator of all?
When I doubt that truth, when I buy that lie, the addiction comes back and I run to places asking the question do you like me?
Then I find myself disgusted at myself for the fact that I had to get my worth from that place and I find myself worse off than I started.
The cycle doesn't seem breakable.
What is grace?
What is grace in it's fullest purest form? What does it truly feel like?
I have a problem flirting with women.
I have a need to be liked.
I have a God who likes me deeply.
Why do I need the words of humans to find my worth?
Why do I need the money of this world to find my worth?
Why do I need the awards and achievements of this world to find my worth?
I don't.
So I decided there is nothing better than to enjoy food and drink and to find satisfaction in work. Then I realized that these pleasures are from the hand of God. For who can eat or enjoy anything apart from him?
-Ecclesiastes 2
Apart from God nothing can satisfy,
With God anything can satisfy.
I am a sinner but so is everyone else.
We all need grace we've never given.
We all need to be washed in the blood.
But even after that we need our feet washed daily and Jesus is more than willing to change our diapers.
As soon as we soil our diaper we have the choice to run to Abba and get it changed or we can sit in it and develop a collection and a very painful crippling rash. If we deny or avoid our sin it only compounds and further imprisons us. If we try to save ourselves, if we try to act like we are perfect, we will lose ourselves. If we try to lose ourselves, if we admit we are sinners, babies with filthy diapers, then we will be saved.
I am a man and I need to feel liked.
And that's ok.
God I pray that You would show me that You like me. Help me feel.
You are mine - Enter the Worship Circle