I broke up with Bea tonight.
How do we ever know if we made the right choices in this one short life God?
This really hurts. More than I thought it would.
She cried for me tonight. She's never done that before. Never.
She's cried when I hurt her. She's cried at beautiful things we've seen together but she's never cried at the loss of me before. She's always stood there like a cold statue as I've been the one to let the tears fall.
Tonight, finally, finally, she cries for me. She shows me that I matter to her...
We are family. I've known her since she was 19.
God she is such an amazing woman. She is great. She will be great.
She is so wise. Her heart is so big.
Oh God this wasn't supposed to hurt like this. She was the one who kept suggesting we weren't working, it wasn't healthy, it wasn't good.
There I was holding her as her tears soaked my sleeve...
I know you make all things work together for our good, but how do we know if we make the right choices? How do we know? Are there right and wrong choices?
I already miss her. She's a great woman. I know that she will grow with You.
This fucking sucks.
She was always so amazed at my certainty but I am so uncertain.
How can anyone be so arrogant as to be certain about things?
I wish I would talk to myself 50 years from now and see what he'd say about this night in our life. 77 year old Adam...
Here I am God. This is the choice I have made. Certain or not, right or not. I have made a choice.
Teach me how to trust you Jesus
free her heart
heal Bea
heal me
Josh Garrels - Benediction
How do we ever know if we made the right choices in this one short life God?
This really hurts. More than I thought it would.
She cried for me tonight. She's never done that before. Never.
She's cried when I hurt her. She's cried at beautiful things we've seen together but she's never cried at the loss of me before. She's always stood there like a cold statue as I've been the one to let the tears fall.
Tonight, finally, finally, she cries for me. She shows me that I matter to her...
We are family. I've known her since she was 19.
God she is such an amazing woman. She is great. She will be great.
She is so wise. Her heart is so big.
Oh God this wasn't supposed to hurt like this. She was the one who kept suggesting we weren't working, it wasn't healthy, it wasn't good.
There I was holding her as her tears soaked my sleeve...
I know you make all things work together for our good, but how do we know if we make the right choices? How do we know? Are there right and wrong choices?
I already miss her. She's a great woman. I know that she will grow with You.
This fucking sucks.
She was always so amazed at my certainty but I am so uncertain.
How can anyone be so arrogant as to be certain about things?
I wish I would talk to myself 50 years from now and see what he'd say about this night in our life. 77 year old Adam...
Here I am God. This is the choice I have made. Certain or not, right or not. I have made a choice.
Teach me how to trust you Jesus
free her heart
heal Bea
heal me
Josh Garrels - Benediction