Moments.
At the end of the day that's all we really have in this life. I wonder what life would be like if I lost my vision, if I lost my memory. What would life be at that point? I put so much stock on seeing things and experiences I can look back on but both of them can be taken from me with the right hit to my head.
In an instance.
Fatherhood, I look forward to that day. Spending the evening with these two kids was so much fun. Spending any time with children is always such a fulfilling experience. If all we have in life are moments then I want them to be fulfilling. Sitting on a couch watching a cartoon with my very own children that must be a better feeling than sitting by the eiffel tower, sitting inside the great pyramid of Giza, Sitting in the Sistine Chapel, sitting on top of a mountain, sitting by both American oceans, I've sat in all these places but to be with my own children watching the same cartoon for the 50th time I have yet to sit there and I wonder what that moment will feel like? It makes my eyes begin to tear just thinking of that moment.
To be a father
to be a dad
I'm excited for that. Sitting with those two being pulled around their house to the playroom or the kitchen the joy they experience sharing their lives with me. Sitting until midnight talking with their father hearing about his life, where he came from, his passion, and his future dreams. It's powerful to experience moments like that.
I am thankful God that we get to play a part in procreation. I'm thankful we get to experience a small taste of bringing life to this pale blue dot even if it is just for a moment, how beautiful and worth it that moment is.
Maybe one day I will look back on this entry as a father. It will be interesting to reflect on my expectations and my dreams mixed with the realities of mundane routines and struggles of parenthood. But I hope I can look back and keep this moment in perspective.
Glen Hansard - Grace Beneath the Pines