Manplaining manbun with her husband's friend
Friday night I went out with her and two of her friends. It felt weird. I know her husband views me as someone who wants to get in the middle of someone's marriage. I know he has no respect for me. I know he hangs out with these people often they are his friends and through his lens they are their friends...not mine, I'm just a homewrecker.
This week had been a long exhausting week. The first day of school a mother couldn't find one of my students because she expected him on another bus than the one the district had assigned. Every night this week I put in 12 hour days and I had finally made it to Friday. I wanted to see her, I always want to see her to be near her, next to her, I want her happy, I want her laughing, smiling, and I want to look in her eyes, those eyes.
I want her smiling like when I talk about fingers on fingers. I want her smiling like when her friend sends me a bitmoji with double fingers.
But Friday night wasn't perfect, not the ending. We went out with her friends and the dude seemed awkward because he was out with his friend's wife and her side dude, I felt like an asshole. We started trash talking each other about video games she mentioned Super Smash Bros a game that anyone who grew up with me would know I use to hold tournaments in my house as a kid and win. I also won the school tournament when one of the science fair booths had the game. I loved that game. If I was home alone I would set the three computer players to level 9 and put them on the same team against me.
We walked to 16 bit the night is chilly but perfect if you're one of those Ohio season lovers. She looked incredible that night her ripped long legged pants and her black top with just a tease of stomach. We got to the bar and there was already a crowd of people playing SSB. She bought me another PBR, she always buys all my drinks and my poor unemployed ass has to accept them as she insists it's nothing to her along with countless uber rides, I felt like an asshole.
We walked to frogger and I watched her play, she's much better at the game than I am. I knew turtles was nearby I use to play that endlessly before the N64 was created. We played a bit and I explained the buttons, I felt like an asshole.
She wanted street fighter and I knew where it was, I was always a Mortal Kombat kid but I'd play anything with her to be beside her. The game was taken and from the looks of it that dude wasn't planning on leaving. So we made a full lap back to the N64 table her friends had left and it was just the two of us. It was around 11 I had been awake for 15 hours but I wanted to be with her and I knew if we went home she couldn't stay over and cuddle. She asked if I wanted to play SSB, I said no, she insisted, she approached one of the guys at the table, he slid his arm around her pleased to have a beautiful stranger break the ice. She must have asked if she could play, then pointed to me, the man's expression immediately changed. I hate meeting people, I didn't want this situation at all. I walked up, the guy subtly threw a shoulder, said excuse me, and walked away. She handed me the controller at a table full of strangers. She had now had me intrude on a group of friends' game. I started the game over which I felt like a dick for doing. I tried to select my character but the joystick was hard to move, or was I just rusty at the game? I couldn't be I played it sometimes over at Daniel's with Alan. The game started and I basically walked off the edge twice. I started complaining about the controller which is what every sore loser does, the worst fucking complaint anyone playing video games can make. I had embarrassed myself in front of a woman I wanted only to impress, and around strangers I had taken a controller from. I felt like an asshole.
I couldn't stand the situation any longer I set the controller down and walked away. What a moron burying myself in my phone I wanted to disappear and I shut down. She walked over to me and I was in lock down mode a classic relationship Adam move I could feel it coming, she was on the verge of walking away, we were silent, it was terrible, and if we had been seeing each other long enough and comfortable enough she definitely would have walked away. They all do.
I don't know how to do relationships, this woman comes from a fucking perfect home life, she has such a healthy open adventurous group text with her family. Her family has shown her it's good to talk and share to communicate and open up. That's not how I was taught to do family and relationships. I was taught to eat in front of the tv in separate rooms unless it's Thanksgiving. I was told to not talk to my mom unless I needed something. I was told not to use my brother's washer and dryer if I didn't have one.
She ordered an uber, I secretly wanted to walk in the rain with her but I understand she didn't. She offered to drop me off at my place, I told her I didn't want her to, I wanted to walk back to my place in the rain, she objected, I felt like an asshole.
The ride was quiet, she extended her hand across the back seat, something I was very grateful for, when I lock down I'm never able to pull myself out but I wanted her hand I always do. Pulled up to my place and I thanked her and got out...I felt like an asshole.
I want her laughing, always, like my camera roll from Tasty Made but I don't think I know how to have something long term and healthy. I only know how to flirt and first date. I only know how to one night stand. I only know how to look better than an insecure abusive husband, but after awhile the shine wears away and I'm an insecure silent man myself turning to stone.
I think I always knew my roll in her life was to show her there are good men out there, my roll has always been to be the sign that points to something healthy but nothing more than that post marriage rebound. I forgot that for a minute, it slipped my mind at the top of Rising Park during the roar of the tractor pulls, I forgot while ordering a drink from PJ at Mohawks, It escaped me at the mill in Yellow Springs. I'll ride it out as far as it will go. I want to see her as much as I can before she starts to walk away. She's amazing, she's everything I want in a woman and somethings I didn't know I wanted.
But what the fuck do I know about long term healthy relationships?
Nothing.
In exactly three months, I'll be thirty.
FUN - Kyle
Friday night I went out with her and two of her friends. It felt weird. I know her husband views me as someone who wants to get in the middle of someone's marriage. I know he has no respect for me. I know he hangs out with these people often they are his friends and through his lens they are their friends...not mine, I'm just a homewrecker.
This week had been a long exhausting week. The first day of school a mother couldn't find one of my students because she expected him on another bus than the one the district had assigned. Every night this week I put in 12 hour days and I had finally made it to Friday. I wanted to see her, I always want to see her to be near her, next to her, I want her happy, I want her laughing, smiling, and I want to look in her eyes, those eyes.
I want her smiling like when I talk about fingers on fingers. I want her smiling like when her friend sends me a bitmoji with double fingers.
But Friday night wasn't perfect, not the ending. We went out with her friends and the dude seemed awkward because he was out with his friend's wife and her side dude, I felt like an asshole. We started trash talking each other about video games she mentioned Super Smash Bros a game that anyone who grew up with me would know I use to hold tournaments in my house as a kid and win. I also won the school tournament when one of the science fair booths had the game. I loved that game. If I was home alone I would set the three computer players to level 9 and put them on the same team against me.
We walked to 16 bit the night is chilly but perfect if you're one of those Ohio season lovers. She looked incredible that night her ripped long legged pants and her black top with just a tease of stomach. We got to the bar and there was already a crowd of people playing SSB. She bought me another PBR, she always buys all my drinks and my poor unemployed ass has to accept them as she insists it's nothing to her along with countless uber rides, I felt like an asshole.
We walked to frogger and I watched her play, she's much better at the game than I am. I knew turtles was nearby I use to play that endlessly before the N64 was created. We played a bit and I explained the buttons, I felt like an asshole.
She wanted street fighter and I knew where it was, I was always a Mortal Kombat kid but I'd play anything with her to be beside her. The game was taken and from the looks of it that dude wasn't planning on leaving. So we made a full lap back to the N64 table her friends had left and it was just the two of us. It was around 11 I had been awake for 15 hours but I wanted to be with her and I knew if we went home she couldn't stay over and cuddle. She asked if I wanted to play SSB, I said no, she insisted, she approached one of the guys at the table, he slid his arm around her pleased to have a beautiful stranger break the ice. She must have asked if she could play, then pointed to me, the man's expression immediately changed. I hate meeting people, I didn't want this situation at all. I walked up, the guy subtly threw a shoulder, said excuse me, and walked away. She handed me the controller at a table full of strangers. She had now had me intrude on a group of friends' game. I started the game over which I felt like a dick for doing. I tried to select my character but the joystick was hard to move, or was I just rusty at the game? I couldn't be I played it sometimes over at Daniel's with Alan. The game started and I basically walked off the edge twice. I started complaining about the controller which is what every sore loser does, the worst fucking complaint anyone playing video games can make. I had embarrassed myself in front of a woman I wanted only to impress, and around strangers I had taken a controller from. I felt like an asshole.
I couldn't stand the situation any longer I set the controller down and walked away. What a moron burying myself in my phone I wanted to disappear and I shut down. She walked over to me and I was in lock down mode a classic relationship Adam move I could feel it coming, she was on the verge of walking away, we were silent, it was terrible, and if we had been seeing each other long enough and comfortable enough she definitely would have walked away. They all do.
I don't know how to do relationships, this woman comes from a fucking perfect home life, she has such a healthy open adventurous group text with her family. Her family has shown her it's good to talk and share to communicate and open up. That's not how I was taught to do family and relationships. I was taught to eat in front of the tv in separate rooms unless it's Thanksgiving. I was told to not talk to my mom unless I needed something. I was told not to use my brother's washer and dryer if I didn't have one.
She ordered an uber, I secretly wanted to walk in the rain with her but I understand she didn't. She offered to drop me off at my place, I told her I didn't want her to, I wanted to walk back to my place in the rain, she objected, I felt like an asshole.
The ride was quiet, she extended her hand across the back seat, something I was very grateful for, when I lock down I'm never able to pull myself out but I wanted her hand I always do. Pulled up to my place and I thanked her and got out...I felt like an asshole.
I want her laughing, always, like my camera roll from Tasty Made but I don't think I know how to have something long term and healthy. I only know how to flirt and first date. I only know how to one night stand. I only know how to look better than an insecure abusive husband, but after awhile the shine wears away and I'm an insecure silent man myself turning to stone.
I think I always knew my roll in her life was to show her there are good men out there, my roll has always been to be the sign that points to something healthy but nothing more than that post marriage rebound. I forgot that for a minute, it slipped my mind at the top of Rising Park during the roar of the tractor pulls, I forgot while ordering a drink from PJ at Mohawks, It escaped me at the mill in Yellow Springs. I'll ride it out as far as it will go. I want to see her as much as I can before she starts to walk away. She's amazing, she's everything I want in a woman and somethings I didn't know I wanted.
But what the fuck do I know about long term healthy relationships?
Nothing.
In exactly three months, I'll be thirty.
FUN - Kyle