Jesus the men in my small group are such a blessing. To be greeted at my door with a giant check with outrageous funds for my trip to Africa, it made my heart swell. It is so strange to consider myself a leader of men when You and I both know what a horrible failure I am. I suppose what's why You told Paul "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." If that's the case then Your power works very well in me.
In Your kingdom leaders are servants. Show me how to serve. Show me how not to judge. Show me how to thank You constantly. Show me how to love. Show me how to be last.
Why am I so selfish? I guess it's difficult to think about others' feelings when all I can feel are my own. I need Your empathy. I need to feel what others feel.
I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.
-Paul
What does living with plenty, with everything look like?
What does living with little, with almost nothing look like?
How am I suppose to live? If I have plenty should I give until I have little? Should I give until I have enough? What is enough? If I have little should I ask for more? I want to live like You want me to because I trust that Your way is the best way for me but I'm not sure exactly what that looks like.
Messes of men - Mewithoutyou
And if ever you come near, I'll hold up high a mirror.
Lord, I could never show you anything as beautiful as you!