How can you promise all of those things?
You can't
How can you know you will do what you've said?
You can't
I don't think you are really the personality type that you say you are.
You aren't
I don't think you really like doing these things I think you just say that you like them because I like them.
You don't.
You don't really like my nose ring.
You don't
I met with Bea and Toni last night and every time we would get close to something she would wall up.
I just don't feel it
why?
I just don't.
Toni talked about how no one in Bea's life has ever stuck around long enough to work though forgiveness. And here I am. I am the stove that burnt her hand and she won't touch it again. She likes talking to the stove, she likes being around the stove but to touch it again, she won't.
Trust, as I'm learning, is just as important as freedom for love.
Toni talked about how a person can tell the difference between a trained horse and one that isn't.
It is about a submitting of their will.
As I thought about last night and I listened to Bea talk I started to think about You, God.
Bea doesn't want another session with me.
She wants me to trust her.
Toni wants me to trust God.
and I realized what a horse I am.
Lowering my will, submitting my will to You God is so difficult. You are my stove. I love talking about you, I love learning about you, I love being in your presence. But to trust You? To let go of all control and worry? I won't.
After the session Bea and I talked in the lobby.
You can't
You aren't
You don't
She was keeping a safe distance. She likes to talk with me, she finds me attractive, she likes being with me...but she won't.
Trust.
I broke her heart.
I broke her trust.
It sounds just like me when I pray to You, oh God.
How can you promise all of those things?
You can't
How can you know you will do what you've said?
You can't
I don't think you are really good
You aren't
I don't think you really love me you just say that you love me because you are God and You died for everyone.
You don't.
You don't really love who I am, Adam.
You don't
Trust.
But the truth is You will keep your promises. You will do what you've said. You are good. You do love me. You do love who I am.
And the truth is the same towards her.
I am for her.
I will listen to her.
I will cherish her.
I will fight for her voice.
I will help her chase dreams.
But without trust these words are only a noisy gong, a clanging cymbal. I will not be perfect, but I will always listen to her and she will always be seen.
But without Freedom there can be no trust.
without trust there can be no love.
without love there can be no relationship.
I trust you Jesus
free her heart
give her peace
heal Bea
heal me
I trust you Jesus. Help me lower my head and let my will be your will.
free her heart. Let her choices be from her heart without fear.
give her peace. Whatever choice she makes from her free heart that she rests in it.
heal Bea. Heal her from the burn I have left on her hand from touching me.
heal me. Heal me from the burns that I have experienced in my life as well.
I trust you Jesus
free her heart
give her peace
heal Bea
heal me
The Swell Season - Low Rising
You can't
How can you know you will do what you've said?
You can't
I don't think you are really the personality type that you say you are.
You aren't
I don't think you really like doing these things I think you just say that you like them because I like them.
You don't.
You don't really like my nose ring.
You don't
I met with Bea and Toni last night and every time we would get close to something she would wall up.
I just don't feel it
why?
I just don't.
Toni talked about how no one in Bea's life has ever stuck around long enough to work though forgiveness. And here I am. I am the stove that burnt her hand and she won't touch it again. She likes talking to the stove, she likes being around the stove but to touch it again, she won't.
Trust, as I'm learning, is just as important as freedom for love.
Toni talked about how a person can tell the difference between a trained horse and one that isn't.
It is about a submitting of their will.
As I thought about last night and I listened to Bea talk I started to think about You, God.
Bea doesn't want another session with me.
She wants me to trust her.
Toni wants me to trust God.
and I realized what a horse I am.
Lowering my will, submitting my will to You God is so difficult. You are my stove. I love talking about you, I love learning about you, I love being in your presence. But to trust You? To let go of all control and worry? I won't.
After the session Bea and I talked in the lobby.
You can't
You aren't
You don't
She was keeping a safe distance. She likes to talk with me, she finds me attractive, she likes being with me...but she won't.
Trust.
I broke her heart.
I broke her trust.
It sounds just like me when I pray to You, oh God.
How can you promise all of those things?
You can't
How can you know you will do what you've said?
You can't
I don't think you are really good
You aren't
I don't think you really love me you just say that you love me because you are God and You died for everyone.
You don't.
You don't really love who I am, Adam.
You don't
Trust.
But the truth is You will keep your promises. You will do what you've said. You are good. You do love me. You do love who I am.
And the truth is the same towards her.
I am for her.
I will listen to her.
I will cherish her.
I will fight for her voice.
I will help her chase dreams.
But without trust these words are only a noisy gong, a clanging cymbal. I will not be perfect, but I will always listen to her and she will always be seen.
But without Freedom there can be no trust.
without trust there can be no love.
without love there can be no relationship.
I trust you Jesus
free her heart
give her peace
heal Bea
heal me
I trust you Jesus. Help me lower my head and let my will be your will.
free her heart. Let her choices be from her heart without fear.
give her peace. Whatever choice she makes from her free heart that she rests in it.
heal Bea. Heal her from the burn I have left on her hand from touching me.
heal me. Heal me from the burns that I have experienced in my life as well.
I trust you Jesus
free her heart
give her peace
heal Bea
heal me
The Swell Season - Low Rising