06/21/15

"Why did you do all this for me?" Wilbur asked. "I don't deserve it. I've never done anything for you."
“You have been my friend,” replied Charlotte. “That in itself is a tremendous thing.”
—from Charlotte's Web by E. B. White

. “Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even in the best) of that something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching for, listening for?” Travis and Brian, I love you two. I can not attempt to put a value or appraise the worth of our friendship. Yet I feel the necessity to express that which the three of us take for granted every day of our lives. The two of you are woven deeply into the tapestry of my life. Our life is a breath, a shadow, how rare it is that we exist. I am not guaranteed time on Spaceship Earth with you two. I’m thankful I can express to you, however poorly, how much I care about you two. It’s weekends like this that help to take a moment and say all of the things I feel but never express. I’m proud of my two friends and their masters degrees and I’m honored to be a part of Brian’s ordination. When I look back on the sum of our friendship I see how much we have grown, yet how young we are. We will not know how much time the three of us will have together but I can say now I am inexpressibly joyful for the time we've had. God is love and I feel a taste of that love, that secret thread, within the two of you. “There is no language for what we've seen, Only the sweetness that bends us to our knees, And all of these fumbling words To explain what it means, But our hearts were buried deep in the sand”

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I love my friends. They prevent me from becoming homophobic, racists, transphobic, they show me the heart and love of God. They help me when I am down. They are there when I'm lonely. They add color to my life.

It's scary to think how quickly life can end. Or even how fragile mental health is. Each second with my friends is so amazing.

I've been thinking a lot since Friday night's masters party about this stuff. I have always known I have great friends but I don't think I've ever really understood how amazing it is.

For many, friendship is more meaningful than familial ties. And yet it is our least codified relationship, with no legal standing or bureaucratic definition.
-Gregory Jusdanis

What makes friendship so unique is what holds it together. There is no friendship license from the court house. We are not born in to our friendships. They bond is completely voluntary on both sides and remains and exists solely by the free choosing of both friends. Friends are the people we truly pick each and every day of our lives to love.

“Then as he had kept watch Sam had noticed that at times a light seemed to be shining faintly within; but now the light was even clearer and stronger. Frodo's face was peaceful, the marks of fear and care had left it; but it looked old, old and beautiful, as if the chiseling of the shaping years was now revealed in many fine lines that had before been hidden, though the identity of the face was not changed. Not that Sam Gamgee put it that way to himself. He shook his head, as if finding words useless, and murmured: "I love him. He's like that, and sometimes it shines through, somehow. But I love him, whether or no.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers