Pigeon Superstition
I watched Mr. Nobody after Amorelle talked about it.
Choices are always so difficult.
How can anyone know if they made the best, or even the right choice?
Sometimes I wonder, if I could live two lives, walk two paths, which one would I consider the better?
Or would whichever alternate universe I come from say that that one was the best?
People always say stuff like, "I'm glad I did (fill in the blank) because it got me where I am today" Or "Because it made me who I am today"
But I've always hated that idea because all you know of yourself is the "who you are today" What about the alternative path who you are?
What if that version is smarter? healthier? happier? richer? better relationships with people around them? impacting the world?
You wouldn't know. In college I remember hearing everyone at parties talk like this.
I wanted to go to (fill in other college) but if I hadn't gone to (current college I'm visiting) then I wouldn't be who I am today.
I never said anything I silently nodded completely confused.
Mr. Nobody illustrates this idea to a degree. The film focuses mainly on the protagonists love life and how choices impact who he ends up with. I wish rather than show some weird elderly version of Letto they would have focused more on the paths of his life.
Which career did he like better?
Which life was he happiest in?
Which marriage was the best?
Which had the most friends?
Anyway I think about this every now and then. That's what spurred Amorelle's recommendation.
28 year old Adam
What if I stayed in Wauseon, who would I be in this moment, would I vote for Trump?
What if I moved to Indiana and married Whitney, who would I be?
What if I stayed working in the law firm, would I own a house right now? How much more money would I have?
What if I got a woman pregnant, What kind of father would I be?
What if I ended up going to Tanzania when I was 24 like I wanted?
What if I pursued teaching as an 18 year old straight out of high school?
"What if"
Like the white waters of West Virginia, time moves forward, only forward.
My first instinct is to say if I walked any other path, then I wouldn't be who I am but that again is only for lack of comprehending who my other options of being are.
After everything went down this summer Ericca told me I need to strengthen my yang. In Chinese culture the yin is the introverted life the yang the extroverted when we are out of balance we need to strengthen the other. Countless hours locked in my room working on school work grew my yin created an imbalance. This past month I've been more out going and social than I have ever been since maybe high school.
It's been working, I feel more balanced and healthy. But that was before this semester started. Now I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread. I can't work full time, school full time, friends in the free time, and have time for self care.
Friendships are strange, we create them, we invite people into our lives, and at the same time they invite us into theirs. But once that transaction occurs, this stranger is now hurt or impacted by the way you live your life.
Everything is all so connected. Like Amorelle's thesis... The Way Things Hold Each Other.
We as humans are all so connected and these connections, these threads are so fragile.
No matter which action or inaction we take it impacts these connections, this web.
Here I am opening friendships, finding myself stretched and attempting to focus on school and in so doing, I am hurting those around me.
My one and only path in this reality.
The 1975 - If I Believe You
I watched Mr. Nobody after Amorelle talked about it.
Choices are always so difficult.
How can anyone know if they made the best, or even the right choice?
Sometimes I wonder, if I could live two lives, walk two paths, which one would I consider the better?
Or would whichever alternate universe I come from say that that one was the best?
People always say stuff like, "I'm glad I did (fill in the blank) because it got me where I am today" Or "Because it made me who I am today"
But I've always hated that idea because all you know of yourself is the "who you are today" What about the alternative path who you are?
What if that version is smarter? healthier? happier? richer? better relationships with people around them? impacting the world?
You wouldn't know. In college I remember hearing everyone at parties talk like this.
I wanted to go to (fill in other college) but if I hadn't gone to (current college I'm visiting) then I wouldn't be who I am today.
I never said anything I silently nodded completely confused.
Mr. Nobody illustrates this idea to a degree. The film focuses mainly on the protagonists love life and how choices impact who he ends up with. I wish rather than show some weird elderly version of Letto they would have focused more on the paths of his life.
Which career did he like better?
Which life was he happiest in?
Which marriage was the best?
Which had the most friends?
Anyway I think about this every now and then. That's what spurred Amorelle's recommendation.
28 year old Adam
What if I stayed in Wauseon, who would I be in this moment, would I vote for Trump?
What if I moved to Indiana and married Whitney, who would I be?
What if I stayed working in the law firm, would I own a house right now? How much more money would I have?
What if I got a woman pregnant, What kind of father would I be?
What if I ended up going to Tanzania when I was 24 like I wanted?
What if I pursued teaching as an 18 year old straight out of high school?
"What if"
Like the white waters of West Virginia, time moves forward, only forward.
My first instinct is to say if I walked any other path, then I wouldn't be who I am but that again is only for lack of comprehending who my other options of being are.
After everything went down this summer Ericca told me I need to strengthen my yang. In Chinese culture the yin is the introverted life the yang the extroverted when we are out of balance we need to strengthen the other. Countless hours locked in my room working on school work grew my yin created an imbalance. This past month I've been more out going and social than I have ever been since maybe high school.
It's been working, I feel more balanced and healthy. But that was before this semester started. Now I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread. I can't work full time, school full time, friends in the free time, and have time for self care.
Friendships are strange, we create them, we invite people into our lives, and at the same time they invite us into theirs. But once that transaction occurs, this stranger is now hurt or impacted by the way you live your life.
Everything is all so connected. Like Amorelle's thesis... The Way Things Hold Each Other.
We as humans are all so connected and these connections, these threads are so fragile.
No matter which action or inaction we take it impacts these connections, this web.
Here I am opening friendships, finding myself stretched and attempting to focus on school and in so doing, I am hurting those around me.
My one and only path in this reality.
The 1975 - If I Believe You