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Prayer if anything is truth, it's being honest with your Maker.
It's scary to pray boldly for change or freedom from sin, because if nothing happens, then doesn't that mean God failed? Doesn't that mean His Spirit isn't all we've been told He is? I think fear of God failing us leads us to "cover for God." This means we ask for less, expect less, and are satisfied with less because we are afraid to ask for or expect more. We even convince ourselves that we don't want more-that we have all the "God" we need or could want. I can't imagine how much it pains God to see His children hold back from relationship with the Holy Spirit out of fear that He won't come through. How much it grieves Him to watch His children ignore the promises He's made throughout Scripture due to fear that those promises wont be kept! Empowering His children with the strength of the Holy Spirit is something the Father wants to do. It's not something we have to talk Him into. He genuinely wants to see us walk in His strength.
-Forgotten God Chapter 2
God I don't believe Your promises. I am terrified You will "fail" me. Those around me and myself will doubt Your existence. I don't want to "cover for God." I want to step boldly out of the boat. I want to go where You want me to go. Help me with my faith! I want to expect more and never be satisfied with the amount of You, Holy Spirit, in my life.
I want to trust Your promises. I want more of You God.
You want honesty in my prayers? I don't think You answer too many prayers these days. I don't know if answered prayers are just coincidences or actually You.
People give the "yes, no, and wait" talks and people give the "not my will but Yours be done" safety nets. But in the gospels people called You out. "Lord I want to be healed!" "Lord if you wanted you could make me well" Things like that and You ALWAYS freaking showed up! ALWAYS. So what about now? Not Holy enough? Not enough time spent praying? WHAT IS IT?
God is good I freaking know that and I'll stake my life on that. And You promised You'd give exponentially better gifts than what us evil humans give to one another.
I want more of You Spirit dwelling in me, speaking for me, walking before me, giving me wisdom to speak into my brothers and sisters lives.
Where are You?
Prayer if anything is truth, it's being honest with your Maker.
It's scary to pray boldly for change or freedom from sin, because if nothing happens, then doesn't that mean God failed? Doesn't that mean His Spirit isn't all we've been told He is? I think fear of God failing us leads us to "cover for God." This means we ask for less, expect less, and are satisfied with less because we are afraid to ask for or expect more. We even convince ourselves that we don't want more-that we have all the "God" we need or could want. I can't imagine how much it pains God to see His children hold back from relationship with the Holy Spirit out of fear that He won't come through. How much it grieves Him to watch His children ignore the promises He's made throughout Scripture due to fear that those promises wont be kept! Empowering His children with the strength of the Holy Spirit is something the Father wants to do. It's not something we have to talk Him into. He genuinely wants to see us walk in His strength.
-Forgotten God Chapter 2
God I don't believe Your promises. I am terrified You will "fail" me. Those around me and myself will doubt Your existence. I don't want to "cover for God." I want to step boldly out of the boat. I want to go where You want me to go. Help me with my faith! I want to expect more and never be satisfied with the amount of You, Holy Spirit, in my life.
I want to trust Your promises. I want more of You God.
You want honesty in my prayers? I don't think You answer too many prayers these days. I don't know if answered prayers are just coincidences or actually You.
People give the "yes, no, and wait" talks and people give the "not my will but Yours be done" safety nets. But in the gospels people called You out. "Lord I want to be healed!" "Lord if you wanted you could make me well" Things like that and You ALWAYS freaking showed up! ALWAYS. So what about now? Not Holy enough? Not enough time spent praying? WHAT IS IT?
God is good I freaking know that and I'll stake my life on that. And You promised You'd give exponentially better gifts than what us evil humans give to one another.
I want more of You Spirit dwelling in me, speaking for me, walking before me, giving me wisdom to speak into my brothers and sisters lives.
Where are You?