Saturday, May 3, 2014

05/03/14

...it was through Pride that the devil became the devil: Pride leads to every other vice: it is the complete anti-God state of mind
-C. S. Lewis

We should scrap every law our country has and make one law and one only.
Pride is illegal.
punishable by hugs.

Pride leads to anger
anger is a prison.

It breaks my heart to see someone angry and it seems like it's everywhere I look.

The parents of the kids I teach
The homeless at the food pantry
my brothers and sisters driving on the road with me

Everyone seems so angry.

I'm not saying it isn't without reason
But we are all dust.
This life is a blink.

So much of life we cannot control

Pride is the desire for control
The failure to control leads to anger

If God is love then the anit-God state of mind would be pride

If love is selfless
then pride would be selfish

As followers of Jesus our primary goal and mission should be to give others rest and peace. We should be fighting pride and anger.

What would church look like if our main priority was to help everyone be more patient, peaceful, humble, and calm?
Peace seems to be one of the hardest things to grasp in this life. I've heard it said to live life with open hands so that I may receive and give willingly.

But open hands seems to be an almost impossible way to live.

Aren't their things worth holding on to?

Aren't their things worth fighting for?

But when does that holding, that fighting turn rotten and into pride or anger?

There are so many wills in this world

All of them desiring different things

How do we find peace?

What goes...let go

What if I want what goes to stay? How do I let that go? What if I want to let it go but it seems to stick to my heart? Life is rarely black and white. You can spend your whole life working for something just to have it taken away.

Pride
Anger
Fear

I feel like such a broken record talking about these three things but my life up until recently had been so ruled by them I was so utterly blinded by them that to taste freedom for the first time is such a cold glass of water, it's such a breath of fresh air.

But I still don't have all the answers. Yes I have given up angry but I still have pride. I still can't let go. I still want things. I still fear that it won't be alright.

How do I live in a series of leaps of faith without these three constantly popping up in my life?

How do I see beyond my sight?

How do I live beyond my life?

What do we as Christians, as followers of a perfect man, do as we constantly fail and fall? What sort of example does Jesus give me for when I miserably sin and fail? Or I get caught in the snare of one of these three?

It is impossible to live with pride fear and anger. The body may be functioning but the heart has long since passed.

It is impossible to die with humility courage and peace. The body may be rotting but the heart will never perish.

I don't want to just open my hands at the end of every church service one a week for 3 minutes. Teach me how to live with my hands open in the rain, in the pain.

Matt Hires- A --> B