Tomorrow I start at the other elementary school. I already feel so much pressure and stress as it is.
Waking up at 6:15 every morning working until 6pm homework, study, reading, class until 10pm Try to eat something and wash my hair early enough to get enough sleep before I have to wake up at 6am again.
Have I become my father?
I vowed to never go back to school.
I vowed to find a job I didn't have to take home with me.
I vowed to never work a Saturday again.
Here I am waking up almost as early as he does.
Working myself to exhaustion and falling asleep.
My dad asleep on the couch with the TV on.
That's how I will always remember him in my childhood.
I will not be that.
Your children need your presence more than your presents.
-Jesse Jackson
Now I know why teachers need summers off. They need time to emotionally recharge as they constantly pour out and empty themselves of their patience, understanding, and modeling calm behavior.
I've been teaching emotionally unregulated preschoolers for 3 and a half years now. No summer break, no snow days. Straight through. And now I'm about to work in three different classrooms each with their own children with their own needs. I have to be that representative of trust, consistency, and reliability while running on an empty tank already.
8 weeks until California.
I can do this.
I can push through this semester.
I've been pushing through for the past year.
No summer break from classes.
No break from work.
Still maintaining that 4.0
Teaching is such an emotional drain
But it's greatest weakness is its strength
Teaching is such an emotional reward
Take chances, make mistakes, get messy
-Miss Frizzle
In order the cultivate a climate where children feel safe enough and free enough to take chances and fail teachers must put themselves out there emotionally. We cannot be that stone cold stern robot authoritarian. Principals love the classroom management results of silent sitting children. But the classroom loses it's power and ability to be a place of learning. It becomes a prison, enslaved by the schedule and the irritation of adults who's ears detest loud noises.
Sorry God I went off an a tangent.
Help me with time management. Help me balance school, work. social, and self care.
Help me get through these 8 weeks.
Help me survive til California.
What a privilege and a luxury to get the opportunity to teach children. Please don't let this purpose be taken from me.
After 28 years I've finally found a job worth tethering to my identity. I've finally found a job worth spending thousands of dollars in school. I've finally found a job that gives me life during the day.
Help me survive school.
Bob Dylan - Hurricane
Waking up at 6:15 every morning working until 6pm homework, study, reading, class until 10pm Try to eat something and wash my hair early enough to get enough sleep before I have to wake up at 6am again.
Have I become my father?
I vowed to never go back to school.
I vowed to find a job I didn't have to take home with me.
I vowed to never work a Saturday again.
Here I am waking up almost as early as he does.
Working myself to exhaustion and falling asleep.
My dad asleep on the couch with the TV on.
That's how I will always remember him in my childhood.
I will not be that.
Your children need your presence more than your presents.
-Jesse Jackson
Now I know why teachers need summers off. They need time to emotionally recharge as they constantly pour out and empty themselves of their patience, understanding, and modeling calm behavior.
I've been teaching emotionally unregulated preschoolers for 3 and a half years now. No summer break, no snow days. Straight through. And now I'm about to work in three different classrooms each with their own children with their own needs. I have to be that representative of trust, consistency, and reliability while running on an empty tank already.
8 weeks until California.
I can do this.
I can push through this semester.
I've been pushing through for the past year.
No summer break from classes.
No break from work.
Still maintaining that 4.0
Teaching is such an emotional drain
But it's greatest weakness is its strength
Teaching is such an emotional reward
Take chances, make mistakes, get messy
-Miss Frizzle
In order the cultivate a climate where children feel safe enough and free enough to take chances and fail teachers must put themselves out there emotionally. We cannot be that stone cold stern robot authoritarian. Principals love the classroom management results of silent sitting children. But the classroom loses it's power and ability to be a place of learning. It becomes a prison, enslaved by the schedule and the irritation of adults who's ears detest loud noises.
Sorry God I went off an a tangent.
Help me with time management. Help me balance school, work. social, and self care.
Help me get through these 8 weeks.
Help me survive til California.
What a privilege and a luxury to get the opportunity to teach children. Please don't let this purpose be taken from me.
After 28 years I've finally found a job worth tethering to my identity. I've finally found a job worth spending thousands of dollars in school. I've finally found a job that gives me life during the day.
Help me survive school.
Bob Dylan - Hurricane