..."Doing my thing" Modern dating is not "my thing" Modern dating, countless shallow temporary interactions was never plan A but it is the reality of my situation. Plan A was find a woman who feels like home but sometimes we don't find them. Sometimes we do but circumstances beyond ourselves hinder...So plan B. I have grown to accept and even at times enjoy this plan I use to despise it. But to be very very clear it is and will always be plan B. In January I promised to keep an open mind while dating while I can't be given what I deserve. I gave my word and I have tried my damnedest to keep that word. To say I used the steps to get into the shallow end rather than cannonball my ass off the diving board and collected all the sinking rings at the bottom of the 12ft end was because of the circumstances of the pool... I felt and I still to this day feel like I jumped the fence of another pool and for all intents and purposes I shouldn't even be dipping a toe let alone take the steps into the shallow end...but I did, I am, and I did because of my own choices and I take responsibility for that I freely chose to and I absolutely have no regret. My only regret would be not being able to take the diving board and jackknife into the deep end. I wasn't told to wait. I should be happy now... But what if waiting would make me happy? What if people shouldn't determine what I deserve or don't... What if I am a man of my word (or at least I try to be) and what if I gave my word: If you ever finally wake up. Please come find me *Redacted*. I'm yours. I suppose a word like that along with promising to keep an open mind while dating coming from a man who tries very hard to keep his word would make plan B seem like plan A...but don't get it twisted.
But by the time this letter is posted another week will have passed and who knows the sorts of merciless gymnastics time plays on the mind. As this letter posts I'll be waking in the Cuyahoga Valley National Park Ohio's only national park.
If the injustice is part of the necessary friction of the machine of government, let it go, let it go: perchance it will wear smooth - certainly the machine will wear out. If the injustice has a spring, or a pulley, or a rope, or a crank, exclusively for itself, then perhaps you may consider whether the remedy will not be worse than the evil; but if it is of such a nature that it requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then I say, break the law. Let your life be a counter-friction to stop the machine. What I have to do is see, at any rate, that I do not lend myself to the wrong which I condemn.
-Civil Disobedience by Henry David Thoreau
I had this quote saved from Civil Disobedience when I was reading it. I wanted to take time to process and map out my thoughts about it here but now despite my efforts I find my mind completely occupied with a subject I promised I'd not fill my mind with... I mentioned I'm working on being a man of my word... it certainly seems to be a work in progress at the moment. All I can think to say is I like this quote...and this one day at a time stuff isn't easy by any means.
I was feeling down, then I found a nice witch and now we're best friends - in love with a ghost
But by the time this letter is posted another week will have passed and who knows the sorts of merciless gymnastics time plays on the mind. As this letter posts I'll be waking in the Cuyahoga Valley National Park Ohio's only national park.
If the injustice is part of the necessary friction of the machine of government, let it go, let it go: perchance it will wear smooth - certainly the machine will wear out. If the injustice has a spring, or a pulley, or a rope, or a crank, exclusively for itself, then perhaps you may consider whether the remedy will not be worse than the evil; but if it is of such a nature that it requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then I say, break the law. Let your life be a counter-friction to stop the machine. What I have to do is see, at any rate, that I do not lend myself to the wrong which I condemn.
-Civil Disobedience by Henry David Thoreau
I had this quote saved from Civil Disobedience when I was reading it. I wanted to take time to process and map out my thoughts about it here but now despite my efforts I find my mind completely occupied with a subject I promised I'd not fill my mind with... I mentioned I'm working on being a man of my word... it certainly seems to be a work in progress at the moment. All I can think to say is I like this quote...and this one day at a time stuff isn't easy by any means.
I was feeling down, then I found a nice witch and now we're best friends - in love with a ghost