This is my last week living on Tibet road. August 2013 to August 2017 the time I spent in this apartment is the same amount of time I spent in high school, or in college.
14 to 18 High School
18 to 22 College
25 to 29 Tibet Road
How much I changed from the start and end of each of those chapters
I wonder if we humans continue to grow and change this drastically every four years.
When I write these letters I always start them a week or so in advance and continue to return to them as I ponder and as life happens...well I wrote the above section some point last week but then this happened Wednesday morning
I quit my job. I feel like I lost my train of thought about the above conversation but interestingly enough I spent four years at this preschool job. Tying everything together here.
Today when I sent that email to HR and other members of the staff my heart was racing. Everyone congratulated me on my courage but I was so terrified that all I feel is cowardly hiding behind a computer screen. But I said what needed to be said. I feel strongly about everything I mentioned in that email. I also feel like I did a white man thing and took an issue about Alicia and I made it about me putting myself at the focus of this.
I feel like I have so much to learn about being a decent citizen of the world. It is so hard to see the world from other viewpoints. How can I imagine what it is like to be a woman, or in this case a lesbian?
White cis male
I am the problem with not only humanity but the near destruction of the entire planet and its ecosystem.
If this keyboard had emojis I'd use the narrow closed eyes and a straight mouth to express my frustration with both myself and my fellow white cis males.
No one from administration approached me about this email I got nothing at all. But at the same time I guess what is there left to say? If Alicia can't work there then I'm not working there, end of conversation. (I should also specify I'm writing this portion on Wednesday July 12th the day I sent that email)
And then this happened:
My bosses bosses boss replied and honestly I really respect this man. I faltered for a moment questioning myself and my motives but I collected my thoughts and I sent this response Thursday morning:
And that's where it landed. The chain stopped and around noon I received a phone call asking to meet up for coffee tomorrow (Friday) with a person from HR. Tonight (Thursday) I am organizing and gathering specific instances to help illustrate the points.
This
is
exhausting
Today (Friday) I met with HR and I think the conversation was productive. I made it clear I'm leaving because I don't want to work where LGBTQ people are not allowed to work and I also think I pointed out some injustices done to the women working in the prek. Hopefully those women get the work environment they deserve they have all been like mothers to me over these four years. They have been there for me over break ups life choices and so many things. I'm going to miss those ladies and the children.
Tomorrow (Saturday) we move to the new place.
August will be a brand new start for me
new apartment
new job
my life for the past four years is coming to a close and I think that is good and I think it is sad.
This morning was my first (non one night stand) morning waking up in German Village.
I'm excited for many many more to come.
Marvins Room - Drake
14 to 18 High School
18 to 22 College
25 to 29 Tibet Road
How much I changed from the start and end of each of those chapters
I wonder if we humans continue to grow and change this drastically every four years.
When I write these letters I always start them a week or so in advance and continue to return to them as I ponder and as life happens...well I wrote the above section some point last week but then this happened Wednesday morning
Today when I sent that email to HR and other members of the staff my heart was racing. Everyone congratulated me on my courage but I was so terrified that all I feel is cowardly hiding behind a computer screen. But I said what needed to be said. I feel strongly about everything I mentioned in that email. I also feel like I did a white man thing and took an issue about Alicia and I made it about me putting myself at the focus of this.
I feel like I have so much to learn about being a decent citizen of the world. It is so hard to see the world from other viewpoints. How can I imagine what it is like to be a woman, or in this case a lesbian?
White cis male
I am the problem with not only humanity but the near destruction of the entire planet and its ecosystem.
If this keyboard had emojis I'd use the narrow closed eyes and a straight mouth to express my frustration with both myself and my fellow white cis males.
No one from administration approached me about this email I got nothing at all. But at the same time I guess what is there left to say? If Alicia can't work there then I'm not working there, end of conversation. (I should also specify I'm writing this portion on Wednesday July 12th the day I sent that email)
And then this happened:
This
is
exhausting
Today (Friday) I met with HR and I think the conversation was productive. I made it clear I'm leaving because I don't want to work where LGBTQ people are not allowed to work and I also think I pointed out some injustices done to the women working in the prek. Hopefully those women get the work environment they deserve they have all been like mothers to me over these four years. They have been there for me over break ups life choices and so many things. I'm going to miss those ladies and the children.
Tomorrow (Saturday) we move to the new place.
August will be a brand new start for me
new apartment
new job
my life for the past four years is coming to a close and I think that is good and I think it is sad.
This morning was my first (non one night stand) morning waking up in German Village.
I'm excited for many many more to come.
Marvins Room - Drake