We have a strange illusion that mere time cancels sin....The guilt is washed out not by time but by repentance and the blood of Christ: if we have repented these early sins we should remember the price of our forgiveness and be humble.
-The Problem of Pain Chapter 4 Human Wickedness
November 1 Month After
December 2 Months After
January 3 Months After
February 4 Months After
I've gained back the 15lbs that I lost after the first month.
Plus I'm up 7lbs from my normal weight.
Time heals all, or so they say. Time may make me look whole on the outside. But I still need a lot of work done on the inside.
Being fit is bitter sweet. It's sweet because it feels good to be in shape it's bitter because I don't get to hold her close. I know she never cared about my body but it's something nice I'd like to do for her. I remember when she wrote me that letter, You know the one. She doesn't care what my body looks like now. She doesn't care about when I couldn't eat for a month. She doesn't care that I've gain weight.
At least You see my bod. I'm learning to do things for You. Not in a weird way but in a way You are the bridegroom. Even though I don't have her to share my hard work with at least You see me and I can share it with You.
09/25/11 last time I kissed her. As I continue to read this Josh Harris book the more I want to make the commitment to not kiss another woman until we are at the altar. If I'll ever be at the altar. Lord I don't want to go through this again. I don't want to put myself out there and I don't want to disrespect a woman. It's a big commitment to possibly never kiss another woman but I want to do it. I'm not officially committing to it yet but the more I reflect on the pain inflicted by her betrayal the more appealing it looks.
Have I repented of every stain? Have I fallen into the lie that time cancels sin? Time doesn't heal all. These wounds I have from this broken relationship won't scar until You've healed me. Nothing, not even time will heal me other than You. Time might be able to help my body look healthy and healed but my spirit, my soul, my heart can only be healed by You.
In You there is hope, there is peace, there is love and the power of God that reigns down from above.It is You that can cut through the darkness of night by the power of Your marvelous light. God lift up my head to understand Your will in the depths of despair You are deeper still.
God lift up my head to look in to Your marvelous light.
Lift Up My Head - Jeff Anderson
April
May
-The Problem of Pain Chapter 4 Human Wickedness
November 1 Month After
December 2 Months After
January 3 Months After
February 4 Months After
I've gained back the 15lbs that I lost after the first month.
Plus I'm up 7lbs from my normal weight.
Time heals all, or so they say. Time may make me look whole on the outside. But I still need a lot of work done on the inside.
Being fit is bitter sweet. It's sweet because it feels good to be in shape it's bitter because I don't get to hold her close. I know she never cared about my body but it's something nice I'd like to do for her. I remember when she wrote me that letter, You know the one. She doesn't care what my body looks like now. She doesn't care about when I couldn't eat for a month. She doesn't care that I've gain weight.
At least You see my bod. I'm learning to do things for You. Not in a weird way but in a way You are the bridegroom. Even though I don't have her to share my hard work with at least You see me and I can share it with You.
09/25/11 last time I kissed her. As I continue to read this Josh Harris book the more I want to make the commitment to not kiss another woman until we are at the altar. If I'll ever be at the altar. Lord I don't want to go through this again. I don't want to put myself out there and I don't want to disrespect a woman. It's a big commitment to possibly never kiss another woman but I want to do it. I'm not officially committing to it yet but the more I reflect on the pain inflicted by her betrayal the more appealing it looks.
Have I repented of every stain? Have I fallen into the lie that time cancels sin? Time doesn't heal all. These wounds I have from this broken relationship won't scar until You've healed me. Nothing, not even time will heal me other than You. Time might be able to help my body look healthy and healed but my spirit, my soul, my heart can only be healed by You.
In You there is hope, there is peace, there is love and the power of God that reigns down from above.It is You that can cut through the darkness of night by the power of Your marvelous light. God lift up my head to understand Your will in the depths of despair You are deeper still.
God lift up my head to look in to Your marvelous light.
Lift Up My Head - Jeff Anderson
