Jesus be with David Bompart today as he heals.
I can not stop thinking about how disgusting dating is to me.
My mind goes back to it over and over again.
I'm suppose to approach a woman and act charming and interesting.
Not too interested not too disinterested.
At any moment she can choose to never talk to me again.
Doesn't matter what my plans were for us, when it's done for her it's done for us.
The idea of walking up to someone's ex-girlfriend, someone's daughter, someone's future wife and hitting on her. It's selfish and disgusting.
I'm tired of this.
I'm tired of wanting to spend this life with someone.
I don't want to make myself vulnerable and open for someone to abandon me again.
Isaiah 22:22
22 I will give him the key to the house of David—the highest position in the royal court. When he opens doors, no one will be able to close them; when he closes doors, no one will be able to open them.
Revelation 3:7
This is the message from the one who is holy and true,
the one who has the key of David.
What he opens, no one can close;
and what he closes, no one can open
At any moment You could slam a door shut in my face that no one can open again. Like what You did with her.