Saturday December 27, 2008 - I still miss you
I called Whitney around 4 in the morning to see if she made it home okay. She told me not to talk to her anymore. I don't know what her parents said to her but I'm scared that she isn't going to stand up for what she wants and what is also hopefully God's plan. So I went to work checking my phone every few minutes my stomach was killing me and I had no appetite. I got off work and couldn't hold back my tears anymore. Why hadn't she called me yet? Does she still love me and will she fight for her love for me? She asked me not to call her any more so I was just going to read next to the phone but thanks to God Jake called and I fell asleep waiting for him. Around 6 we hunt out I was out of it. We even ran into Kelsey L. at wal-mart of course Whitney's best friend and Jake's ex. I couldn't stop thinking about it. Finally Jake told me that when Whitney talked to Taylor she talked about me for like 2 hours and Jimmy for 2 minutes. I hate this waiting waiting it is doing a number on me. I'm only home for another week so I got home at 9. Jake left for IHOP with Taylor. So now it's just me and God sitting by the phone reading Blue Like Jazz. Around 1:30 I called Whitney, she didn't answer or call back. I left a voice mail saying good night and I love her. Because I couldn't brake the streak.
I called Whitney around 4 in the morning to see if she made it home okay. She told me not to talk to her anymore. I don't know what her parents said to her but I'm scared that she isn't going to stand up for what she wants and what is also hopefully God's plan. So I went to work checking my phone every few minutes my stomach was killing me and I had no appetite. I got off work and couldn't hold back my tears anymore. Why hadn't she called me yet? Does she still love me and will she fight for her love for me? She asked me not to call her any more so I was just going to read next to the phone but thanks to God Jake called and I fell asleep waiting for him. Around 6 we hunt out I was out of it. We even ran into Kelsey L. at wal-mart of course Whitney's best friend and Jake's ex. I couldn't stop thinking about it. Finally Jake told me that when Whitney talked to Taylor she talked about me for like 2 hours and Jimmy for 2 minutes. I hate this waiting waiting it is doing a number on me. I'm only home for another week so I got home at 9. Jake left for IHOP with Taylor. So now it's just me and God sitting by the phone reading Blue Like Jazz. Around 1:30 I called Whitney, she didn't answer or call back. I left a voice mail saying good night and I love her. Because I couldn't brake the streak.