I can't stop writing on here lately.
I have so many thoughts so many things I want to wrestle with and pull the truth from within them.
I love Bea's letter or prayer or whatever You want to call it as if everything needs its proper label.
Her thoughts spurred so many new thoughts in me. New questions. Like how one single flower can produce countless seeds.
She talked about making decision for herself.
Making decision for myself.
Is it possible?
Every choice, every yes, is a no to everything else. And every no is a complete closure of that singular path or at least in that moment.
I am choosing to be a teacher but that choice was not only my choice. It was because of the impact children had on my life. It was because of my experiences and my desire to be the change I want to see in the world. I looked at the pantry. I looked at the church. I looked at the world and thought how can I do my part? How can I express what I believe and look back on this blink of a life knowing I tossed as many star fish as I could back into the water. It was because of the affect teaching has within me. It was because the alternative, the idea of sitting in front of a desk achieving profits makes me want to barf. These were not from my mind alone but rather from influences all around me. People, experiences, books, ideas, beliefs, all rolled together to make my choice, but was it mine? Can I claim anything in my life to be truly mine?
Every artist is a cannibal
every poet is a thief
-Bono
Novelty is a new kind of loneliness.
― Wendell Berry
What about when I choose to buy clothes. I am making decisions for other people when I do that. I am choosing to either support or protest certain workers rights. I am choosing to display to the world I approve of this style of dress and therefore disapprove of what I'm not wearing. Everything we do is political. Even our inaction is of course a type of action. It is like how atheism despite its best efforts is a belief system.
If I like everything, then I ultimately like nothing. It is only because of darkness that we can see the stars. It is only through contrast that we can see our individuality, our uniqueness. The critic who loves every thing that is passed across their desk is no longer a critic they are no more useful than if no one was at that desk. It is our yes and equally our no that help shape the boarders of ourselves from the rest.
I wonder if the truest decision can be made while pulling away from one's life or rather through delving into their life. Then in that circumstance, drawing from the truest form of self which is a person in their time and place, in the oneness with creation the true decision is made. Or rather is the true choice made while withdrawing from all influence and persuasion of place and time. It it made while stepping back and taking a look?
Should we make decisions from logic or emotion?
Or as humans do we have some sort of muddled mix of both?
But what amount is considered healthy? Does every choice require a different measure of both?
My brain could travel down this path forever but I should go.
How do we make a decision purely from ourselves and if we could make that decision is that the path we should walk?
I have so many thoughts so many things I want to wrestle with and pull the truth from within them.
I love Bea's letter or prayer or whatever You want to call it as if everything needs its proper label.
Her thoughts spurred so many new thoughts in me. New questions. Like how one single flower can produce countless seeds.
She talked about making decision for herself.
Making decision for myself.
Is it possible?
Every choice, every yes, is a no to everything else. And every no is a complete closure of that singular path or at least in that moment.
I am choosing to be a teacher but that choice was not only my choice. It was because of the impact children had on my life. It was because of my experiences and my desire to be the change I want to see in the world. I looked at the pantry. I looked at the church. I looked at the world and thought how can I do my part? How can I express what I believe and look back on this blink of a life knowing I tossed as many star fish as I could back into the water. It was because of the affect teaching has within me. It was because the alternative, the idea of sitting in front of a desk achieving profits makes me want to barf. These were not from my mind alone but rather from influences all around me. People, experiences, books, ideas, beliefs, all rolled together to make my choice, but was it mine? Can I claim anything in my life to be truly mine?
Every artist is a cannibal
every poet is a thief
-Bono
Novelty is a new kind of loneliness.
― Wendell Berry
What about when I choose to buy clothes. I am making decisions for other people when I do that. I am choosing to either support or protest certain workers rights. I am choosing to display to the world I approve of this style of dress and therefore disapprove of what I'm not wearing. Everything we do is political. Even our inaction is of course a type of action. It is like how atheism despite its best efforts is a belief system.
If I like everything, then I ultimately like nothing. It is only because of darkness that we can see the stars. It is only through contrast that we can see our individuality, our uniqueness. The critic who loves every thing that is passed across their desk is no longer a critic they are no more useful than if no one was at that desk. It is our yes and equally our no that help shape the boarders of ourselves from the rest.
I wonder if the truest decision can be made while pulling away from one's life or rather through delving into their life. Then in that circumstance, drawing from the truest form of self which is a person in their time and place, in the oneness with creation the true decision is made. Or rather is the true choice made while withdrawing from all influence and persuasion of place and time. It it made while stepping back and taking a look?
Should we make decisions from logic or emotion?
Or as humans do we have some sort of muddled mix of both?
But what amount is considered healthy? Does every choice require a different measure of both?
My brain could travel down this path forever but I should go.
How do we make a decision purely from ourselves and if we could make that decision is that the path we should walk?